You learned a new skill

New skill my people! I am such a bad bad girl...recently, an impossible of impossibles of peachies has happened again...

I BAKED!!! Hahahaha! Cheese cupcakes!

I used to have this hopelessly sad notion that only really graceful women and super ultimate pink-lover, skirt-struttin ladies do pastries well. And so I don't try at all, coz that's for them. Well I don't really like pastries that much (even doughnuts, take note...) but I sure think making them is a feat...

And I did it. So a modification of notions is required of peach. Hehehe. My bad. Hahaha. This is soo cool, hehehe. Thank God...

The cupcake verdict:
Taste is excellent (for me, at least). But the consistency...hmm...like a fresh, moist cookie. Haha. Go figure.

By the way:
BERN!!! Game ako sa dancemania! Bring it on! Let's go!!! Hahahaha! Sa susunod na pagkikita!

Reminiscing...

Talking about summah:

Today I am sooo sooo lethargic. And diaphoretic. And experiencing bradycardia.

Maybe most of you would except that in summer I am just the bum. Well you're right- at least physically...unless you don't count cooking, washing the dishes (I soo hate it), laundry, sweep, mop...and the internet (ei, you use fingers there!!! hahahahaha).

An agenda into action:

Anyway, I am so keen on utilizing this vacation period not to rest and party it out anni-style, but to actively write, write, write, and etc. For since my first year, in pursuit of my love-hate relationship with my inevitable (and admittedly, blossoming) nursing career, I had to put my sketching and writing tendencies behind...just force them all to pop like bubbles and disappear...

But no. Like with that handwritten seven-notebook adventure story I stuffed in my dresser cabinet, or with those poems I had posted in my fictionpress account, I guess my heart never really had the guts to destroy them for a finale. I am still a writer, and I know it in myself. I am still the trying artist who has lead for blood and inspiration for glucose...who will forever be l8blmr-raven, eni linna, and...yeah, the blogger yours truly, wildcard07.

The only difference I guess is, in two years I will soon have an RN tailing those pseuds...for now, I sign with my RN CI's (registered nurses, clinical instructors) using SN (student nurse). How's that for motivation...

A Frenchwoman's confession:

In my moments of strong writing and random sketching desires I feel like a real beach for not standing up for these two significant loves of mine. I feel like a two-timing sleuth each time I feel lonesome and have to automatically resort to paper-and-pen therapy to relieve myself, just to go back again to nursing business full-throttle when I return to my optimum state. I feel like such a hoar for denying my having them whenever my superiors would acknowledge or even question them (what are you doing here, you're supposed to be in CFAD- college of fine arts and design). I feel like such a hoe for dearly embracing writing with such fondness during the weekend, yet cling as tightly to my syringes and steth for the rest of the week.

I am still not totally over with that bigtime decision that I had made a couple of years ago when I chose between my ma's wish (be a nurse) and my lingering wants (writer, artist). I still think of it sometimes...how it would have been different had I defied destiny and selected the latter out of pure emotion...

Resolution at hand:

But looking at things now, I think I know where I am supposed to go. There are infinite possibilities in this state called life, and being in the Lord has given me the strength and the tactics to win this situation.

You see people, I cannot explain to you how much I adore nursing now. I have fallen for this career despite my conviction since my younger years that I would never ever take a medical course, despite my fears of syringes (yah right I use that on the newborn baby's thighs), and even despite my negativism towards social relationships, old people, and preganant women. I think nursing was a lifestyle I never counted on being compatible with...but the Lord sure showed me.

By just one test:

Well...there are so many instances where in he did show me, but one of them really shook me up. One night I took this 'gifts' exam. As with the majority of such quizzes, I expected to get writing as my highest...but well, I was surprised to view that I scored highest in healing, with writing coming in only second to that. Come to think of it...hmm, maybe yes, I can go for that cappy costume in the wards, go around in the delivery room in my socks and slippers...

But really, judging with the way my patients easily trust me, I can say maybe I do have that factor, hehehe...let's see now...

Still not over you:

As for my writing and sketching...I don't plan on throwing them, no no...not ever again. I will never be without them. They serve as blessings to others, especially when I perform to amuse them in our bangag days...man the toxicity level is sometimes unbearable that I doodle right on the spot in my small ward notebook just to get rid of the SN toxins, hahahaha...

With nursing I plan on making my twelve-year ambition of writing a full novel a reality. It isn't really over, people...I am still improving, and right after my recent exams I had posted about four of my poems in fictionpress, making someone from somewhere nearly cry out with emotion in his class...hahahaha.

What's up:

  • Doing a very big plot out of my handwritten works over the years...
  • Reviewing anatomy and physiology book bit by bit, as advised by beloved Ma'am Tanodra...
  • Writing poems when I go killigers over my Tamaki, etc...
  • Been going out doing nothing in particular except eat dine and dancemania with Repa...
  • Plotting a dramatic management change...(I'm not explaining this)
  • Bible exploration...
  • Reading fanfiction of harry potter where he is such a bastard slytherin and he has an equally evil twin who is fancied by bro's bestfriend draco malfoy...hahahaha...
  • Scrabble tourney with my very articulate aunt..

the venting out of the exploited victim

DEAR *cringe* JORDI:

i watched the darned scandal vid of me which you had created, and... *shivers*

at the moment, I will vent in my free space, regardless of whoever sees this...

MISS VELAYO! (and perhaps to be Mrs. Teng, bwahahaha- ok, i take that back) HOW COULD YOU!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! I LOOK LIKE A THOROUGHLY LOVED CHICKEN ON HER OVULATION DAY THERE, HOW COULD YOU!!!! NO WONDER THE GANG WAS LAUGHING SO MUCH ABOUT IT AFTERWARDS...MAN, WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO BE THE LAST TO KNOW...I KNOW YOU GUYS SAY TO MY FACE THAT I AM SUCH A GIANT FOSSIL AND THAT I AM SUCH A NAIVETTE, BUT THIS IS JUST INSANE, WOMAN!!! AAAAAAAAAAAA! I JUST HAVE TO VENT! HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO!!! (NOW I AM EVEN LAUGHING LIKE SANTA!) AAAAAA! PLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLS WHATEVER YOU DO, DO NOT- I REPEAT- DO NOT- SEND IT TO THE 'OTHER' PARTY! OR ELSE! (MAN, YOU WILL DEFINITELY BE DEAD! IF NOT BY THE HANDS OF THE OTHER PARTY, THEN DEFINITELY BY MINE- I'LL GROW THREE EXTRA PAIRS JUST FOR YOU!) AAAAAAA, I CAN'T TAKE IT!!!! TOO MUCH GIVING OF IDEAS! SEXUAL INNUENDOS! ADULT THEME NA TO! AAAAAA! WELL THANK GOD NUTRITION PROJECT IS STILL THE MOST SCANDALOUS AND NOT THIS, BUT I REALLY REALLY FREAKED OUT, YOU BAD BAD EVIL EVIL EMERALD!!! KUNG DI LANG KITA TYPE, YOU...WE SHOULD MEET UP ASAP, MAYBE THIS TUESDAY SO I CAN SEE HOW FAR MY VENTING WILL GO!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! I AM SO DARNED FREAKED OUT!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! *FAINTS* (ei, catch me)

SERIOUSLY, Jords, I believe you have given me another reason to think that we are actually meant to be. I mean it platonically (duh) and seriously- come on, I don't know where you get your vivid ideas...hmm, that's perhaps one of the funny reasons why we got together gradually and became the gorgeous ones...hahahaha...

Honestly I was very amused with your creation...and more than that, the effort of you brewing up something so dangerously steamy as that...intriga yan eh! Hahahaha! Don't you ever think I missed the effort there, which I wish to thank you for so much...weird ka tlg, I love you. Salamat sa laughs...I look so much like an idiot here in my mother's room, freezing up when the file played na...nagtachycardia pa nga ako eh, tpos diaphoresis pa...kulang na lang nausea and vomiting, huhuhuhuhu...in short you tinkered with the right buttons to trigger my inner madness! Galing ng mare...

Now I am not at all offended yet I won't say I expected this reaction from myself (I was getting ready with my wooden spoons for your execution proper), especially with the pictures which made me say out loud, 'Who the B*tching hen is that?!'.

Amused. Surprised.Me.Hehehe. *swoons* nawindang, yes, realizing you can come up with that kind of a vid...

Regarding SHARING the pics and the EVIL video...(Bern, read this...)

NAH, no way! Not even (and especially not) to The Society.

Ayun lang. Bwahahahaha. I must really be careful. And again, to my exploiters, if you plan on exploiting me, at least give me a copy (of the vid)! Ok? Wahahaha!

Now, moving on to my Yaoi tendencies...(I was in the middle of watching ouran when your file came in, hahahaha!)

scripts

SuPeRsCrIpTz by peachness
here are three fun exchanges i've had during the late two weeks...

Scenario #1
(School corridor, nursing building, before exams...)
Jords: (runrunrun and glomps at me, all smiles) Anni! I made you a scandal vid!
Anni: Argh, nooooooooo!!! (pause) Oh, you did?
KR: Let us see!
Anni: Aaaa, una ung project sa nutrition*...and now this!!! So evil!!!
Jords: You're right, that's the name of the file- evil! (sneersneersneer)
Anni: ...uy, ano ba un? what did i do again? (looking bemused and scared)
Jords:Aw, don't worry, you'll like it.
Anni: Hmm...Oh, come on Jordi. As I said before- if you're gonna exploit me, at least give me a copy!


*Nutrition project was a complete 'precoital scandal' of me and my groupmates. With a standby video cam the whole time to record our ruthless 'snogging' sessions (wow, new word for me). Or so it seemed. Anyway...



Scenario #2
(Jrep's car, on the way to malabon from moa)
Jrep: (after winning a todo barahan session vs me) Hahahaha! Kala mo mananalo ka sa akin, hmph. You're under me!
(silence)
Anni: (shakes head vigorously) That didn't sound right!!! Bad repa, get it off me!!! Aaaaaa!!! You did NOT just say that!!!


Scenario #3
(Still at Jrep's car, on the way to malabon from moa)
Jrep: (after me losing another session of asaran- man, why do I lose vs this guy...) Hahahaha! Suko ka na! O, cge, wag mo na ako asarin, purihin mo na lang ako!
Anni: (dying laughter) OK, ok, cge, pupurihin na lang kita.
Anni: .....
Anni: .....
Anni: .....
Anni: .....
Jrep: (after finally sensing that I had nothing to say, weirdo) BASTOS KA!!! (launches a Mammoth Attack Special against me)

another one

grabe ang init dito sa bahay. anyway...

kwento ako about kahapon. kahapon las day ng classes nmin for the sem, and boy was i ecstatic when ma textd me na ok lang me go out with the peepz.

kaso sad ako ksi di kasama si yani. at si marky. ang akin naman ksi if i wanna have full-blast fun to the max, dapat syempre ksma ko sila. not that im saying my other fellow gorgeous birds aren't fun...it's just not a full nest for me without those two. si mark hindi pinayagan. si yani...well, i think tinamad siya but of course that's fine, she's had her day.

and may special guest...si Repa!!! yey! i told him kasi two days ago ata un na medyo disappointed ako kasi parang wla atang labas sa las day of class ko, so he offered to come along if ever. so when he texted me at tapos na mga stuffs ko sa ust, i told him to go moa with my friends na lang.

naturally, addicted that i am, nagdancemania na naman kmi ni repa, talo na naman ako, huhuhu...tapos sina jords, kr, sy, julie, nagshooting todo sa time crisis 4. minsan il finish dat, maybe with rep or yani...hahaha...

tapos after nun jords needed to go. sad nmn kmi. hinatid nmin siya sa jeep station outside, saw her off...then nagkataon may fireworks, e di nanood kami. umiral na naman ang aking girlish fancies...to the point na i tried mimicking a line of kids balancing their steps on a pavement (na may isa sa kanila, realizing wt i was doing, tumingin sa kin with a look of shock on her face). Hahahaha. bakit ba...im not in my uniform, bleh...

After that nagdinner kami sa inasal. We ordered sinigang, chicken, sisig, boneless bangus...ayun, then takaw to the max, hehehe...thank gudness matakaw mga friends ko, yehey la kj, hahahaha

then we rode the car. i freaked out kasi si rep dw mgddrive. ayoko tlg. i deeply trust jrep with my trivial matters but i don't trust him taking on the wheel. with me and three of my friends there. but i had no choice...hmph...wel safe nmn kmi at smooth driver pla si rep (kahit na he soo needed the directions of his driver who sat beside him all the way, thank God).

then as my three friends went off to julie's house for a sleepover, kami ni rep bumaba sa dlsu as agreed, ksi nmn f course as his friend i was willing to accompany him to some business of his...with much risk of getting in trouble with my ma, but here's the lusot: how else do i get home if not with repa? wehehehe...bad bad bad...

so ayun, sinamahan ko siya dun sa building, he made an appearance to his mates, mga active members ng org niya, then we went off as quickly, naglakad kmi around the place na hindi pla niya kabisado, hahahaha...then tigil kami, upo sa harap ng university, usap, then walk uli...tpos umakyat uli kmi dun sa party party nila. may mga people na pero umalis na kami, with rep saying na it's a boring party, hahahaha...ang sma tlg, hindi man lng nghintay na makalabas...

pero honestly ha, i really admired rep for not drinking like those people...nagulat nga ako ksi dati akala ko manginginom na tong batang to...un pla, may pagka-anghel pa rin pala kahit papano. hmm...kasi sa dami niyang exposure sa outside world eh i though nainfluence na siya...hm, surprising ha...

so much to my relief, he took me home na. i was getting sleepy na dahil sa pagod ng exams. at pagdancemania. di naman ako nktulog sa car nila rep kht super drowsy na ko ksi ayoko, hiya nmn ako, hahahaha...

ayun, tapos paguwi ngpc pa ko until i got drowsy and i had to surrender to sleep.

found it

whoa...umiral na naman as always ang diyos ng 11:59, hahahaha!!! You're such a God!!!!

I found my flash disk. It's under the rubble of my bros' desktop...

anyway...trying to get myself busy. i wna go outing. anybody up for it? :)

In trouble now

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i lost my mum's flash disk.
naturally she's ok with lending things, but she's totally gaga over her stuff. I mean she's one of the most ingat sa gamit people na kilala ko. so naturally im dead if i don't find it. huhuhu.

i might need to replace it. but where am i gonna get P900?

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i want a summer job.
Lord, asan na ba kasi un? Help me!!!!

To my adversaries...



My soul, wait silently for God alone,
For my expectation is from him. He only is my rock and my salvation; He is my defense; I shall not be moved. In God is my salvation and my glory; The rock of my strength, And my refuge, is in God.