How to eat a chocolate bar

I was watching a movie just a few hours ago and then one of the guys say, "There are many ways to eat a chocolate bar..."

That captured me. Yeah, there are many ways to eat a chocolate bar...like say, kitkat. You can tear off the wax paper and foil savagely and just bite off diagonally like a starving kid. Or maybe just slowly lift a corner of the foil and nibble gracefully. Or be conventional and do it as shown on tv, the slide n' snap method that they always feature as a recommendation. Or just be the choco rebel and snap it the opposite way before putting the finger pieces in your mouth. Or even be such a scrutinizing slowpoke and bite off all the chocolate coating before devouring the wafer inside. Like I usually prefer to. Hehehe.

Yeas, there's lots of ways to consume that yummy kitkat bar. And really, it doesn't take five seconds to go by our method of choice.

Then what's with this fuss about a chocolate bar?

Applying that to myself in a more profound way, I can say that life is like that kitkat bar. There are various ways on how to invest on life. But unlike chocolate, which we can purchase more than once, we only have one shot in life. And we don't want to mess up with it. This is where the importance of making the right choices comes in. Every decision and every action made is a portion of our lives that we can never get back.

So if you gobble everything up at once, you get overwhelmed...and a tummy ache- which isn't really enjoyable. Look at it forever and someone may come along to take it from you. Hide it in the fridge and you might just spoil it. Munch on it too fast and it may fall on the ground, wasted with too much pressure.

So invest wisely...take it eventually...and enjoy the richness of that delightfully sweet chocolate bar.^^

Current Status: Lone Bum

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I don't know why I'm even writing this...

Maybe because I don't know what else to do at the moment. See, I'm just a good bum these days...cooking, cleaning the house, doing my laundry...that sort of thing. Other than that, I'm just lying around with books, paper and pen, the piano, TV, or facing the laptop or PC.

Ah, well...I deserve the long-awaited break...until the board results come out, I'm stuck with other things to do. Like maybe going out almost every night, watching movies, dancing in arcades, contemplating on questions without answers, texting as much as I want...

Or maybe an art class, nine sessions. Or getting my midwifery certification, if that's possible now. Or perhaps writing my book. Or how about attending an oncology seminar in Greenhills...yeah, lots of possiblities.

Somehow I feel like I just opened Pandora's box...endless possibilities, lots of chaos potential on my part. Most of the turmoil, though, is just in my head. And it's messin' up my system up there real nice.

Anni, get some sleep. The heck are you thinking again...

BTW, note for the day...I just lost 2 pounds...and that's me on a vacation. And no, I'm not on a diet.

Falling Stars Are Pretty

I used to be a idealist
A dreamer in every sense
But in such a tale, here comes the twist
I'm stuck in the darkness of suspense

I used to think all is possible
With just a yearning, I can soar through heights
But like a star on its due date, I'm taking the fall
Burned out and fading, losing its light

Falling stars are pretty nonetheless
When they're crying and humbled at their best
When they're learning and growing through the bitterness
They glow more beautifully past the emotional mess

Falling stars can be pretty nonetheless
When they crash and burn into a million pieces
Let me now have my dazzling finale in the limelight
And tomorrow I'll have my comeback in a better light

A Dedication...

Letting go is such a hard thing. But it's necessary for someone who loves to know how to do that. After all, loving isn't always about holding on...but letting go. Even when you can't understand through all the pain why it has to be. Even when forgiveness gets hard to the point that it seems impossible to do.

I am at the point wherein I need to face letting go. Acquaintance, friends, crushies, special friends, fafas, loves...kahit sino pa, dapat matuto tayong magpakawala...lalo na kung yun ang nakakapagbigay ng happiness sa mga taong malapit sa ating puso. (Cheesy!!!! Hahahaha!)

Sa totoo lang nahihiya ako sa pag-amin na nalulungkot ako at nasasaktan pag kailangan kong magpakawala. Bakit naman kailangan kong magtapon ng diyamante sa dagat? Nahihiya akong sabihin yan, dahil kung tutuusin, dapat nga magpasalamat ako at maraming nagmamahal sa akin. Yan ang isang mahalagang bagay na nalaman ko nitong mga huling nakaraang buwan.

Hindi lahat ng tao nahihirapang mag-isip pag tinatanong kung sino ang closest friends niya.

Hindi lahat ng tao puwedeng magtext ng 3 kampo para humingi ng free hugs.

Hindi lahat ng tao may matatawagan at makakausap ng madaling araw hanggang tumaas pa ang araw.

Hindi lahat ng tao madaling makaakbay ng kaibigan para sabihing mahal nila ito.

At hindi lahat ng tao ay nakakakilala sa natatanging Kaibigan natin na hinding hindi napapawi ang pagmamahal...naks.

Looking at the brighter side ika nga. Parang appendectomy ng isang naghihingalong pasyente. Masakit talaga. Siyempre naoperahan. Pero hindi dapat siya nakatuon at iiyak na lamang sa kirot na dulot ng operasyon. Dapat pa nga siyang magdiwang at magbuntung-hininga sa katotohanan na hahaba pa ang buhay niya.

Seeing loss as a gain, sabi sa nabasa ko.

But nevertheless...Para ito sa mga nilalang na nararamdaman kong unti-unti ko nang dapat pakawalan. Yung isa in particular na nagpadala ng video message...salamat. Alam kong hindi ka naman nakakalimot...sana nga talaga mahal mo pa ako kahit matagal na tayong hindi nag-uusap...

Dun sa isa...I'm no David Cook fan (but I do know you are, hehehe). I don't know if you will even come to read this, but just the same...I'm singing it for you.

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Smiles, my loves...I'll find you again...



You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't you recognize the face in the mirror
Looking back at you

You say you're leaving
As you look away
I know there's really nothing left to say
Just know I'm here
Whenever you need me
I'll wait for you
Oh and I'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
Take your time I won't go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you
Oh and I'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
And I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me
I can't get close if you're not there
I can't get inside if there's no soul to bear
I can't fix you, I can't save you
It's something you have to do
So I'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
Come back to me
So I'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
And I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me
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After all, loving isn't always about holding on...but letting go...