Always

(feel ko bitin ito... anyway, random posting on an uneventful afternoon...haven't slept for today yet...but I can't help but just write this down! Overwhelming God! Inspiring God!)

Never thought there ever was real chance of change in me

Never minded being lost in laws 'til you said 'follow Me' 

Never thought You'd make Your Son my penalty for my sin

Never knew a compassion so pure until you came right in

Your holy awesome voice of love broke down my wall of fear

Exposed me to see Your lasting light, beckoned me to come near 

Close enough to have You hold me in Your arms of grace

Close enough to restore my broken heart that lost its place

My soul at peace, my faith upon the Righteous One You sent

How can I explain the joy of this mysterious moment?

Reason falls short, silent this time, before your majesty

My lips sing praises as my chains are broken, for You have set me free

How often shall my singing go? How often shall I pray?

Always, always, always, Lord! Forever and a day!

How often shall I rejoice and seek to know your perfect way?

Always, always, always, Lord! Forever, everyday!

Just one thing

Emo-ness is a tendency; happiness is a choice.

But why am I not convincing myself to feel and be happy? Yeah, I'm not too thrilled today...

But what's new? Life's always a battleground, right? It's a day-to-day trial and error process...either you duck, you hit the target, you conquer...or you get forced on your knees...or get shot down from the skies.

Hmmm...I think I currently got shot down...spirits low...losing it halfway...

But then in the midst of the chaos that I'm in...I know I just have to rise...the Lord, my Lord comes to mind and I think about all the wonderful promises He has for me...how His attributes are beyond measure and surpass our understanding...how he's closer to me than anyone else can ever be, especially at my lowest moments.

And that somehow brings on a faint glow of comfort in the midst of this cold lonely night.