Tonight I write.
It's been a while since I felt the urge to write something here. It's almost midnight. After another day of studying and typical house chores, I'm in my element again, and that means I am in my optimal performance to the dawn. After this net break, I am definitely going to go back to studying Physics and Chemistry. Yeah!
It's strange, though...I've had some interesting insights these past few days. Maybe it's greatly due to the pre-hype for my upcoming government exam, which is taking place this Sunday. Although I DID allot about 25 days for my studying session, I only started seriously delving into specific topics just two days ago, which means that technically I'm only using six days of studying for this very important exam.
Yes, I got lazy. So undisciplined. No excuses for that, heh. Some things don't easily change.
But on the bright side, I AM actually studying for this one... unlike that time with my licensure exam (I did a lot of light reading for that one). It feels refreshing to think that it's really been years since I have studied this hard- with focus and determination. Even with the cramming issue here, I realize now that I am studying purposefully this time. Gradually, I am coming to terms with my life ambitions. I am seeing a definite reason for striving that is in line with God's plans for me.
On the lighter side, my occasional mood shifts from confidence to terror is an evidence of how much I value this opportunity before me.
Wow...I am actually driven to fight for my dream. I know that I have to do well this Sunday because my dream is at stake! Can I do it? Can I get an impressive score? Of course~ by faith, I will get to the second step, and third, and fourth...and then...*excitement bubbling* Oh, but I am terrible at Math... well, I did finish studying that today, but still, the numbers make me cringe...
Lord, please let me have this one. I believe that this has been the leap of faith you've been telling me to go for. So here I am- not contemplating or visualizing, but- presently MAKING that solid step forward. Ikaw na ang bahala sa akin.
Here's to fighting for the dream.
Cashier for a day
just got home from my special shift... since i just got on my indefinite leave from work to study for my special exam, i had a lot of free time in my hands. well of course i have to study and focus on producing an above average score on my march 25 exam, but that doesn't mean i shouldn't enjoy new experiences.
so this morning, after waking up from a despairing dream, i decided to spice up my day a bit by volunteering to come along with my mother to the drug store in bulacan, which is about an hour's drive away from our house. recently, my mother is managing the entire operations of the drug store, so she'd need all the help she could get. i figured that she needed it today in particular, because she had a lot of bank-related transactions to finish. someone always needs to keep an eye on the employees and man the main cashier booth...and just for today i decided to give it a try. so without much thought, i put on some casual clothes and went off with her.
i thought it was going to be easy, but soon i realized that running a pharmacy is not at all simple. there was no time to relax. as soon as i got in, i found myself counting and handing out cash and coins, being careful to keep the balance in the accounts. on the side, the employees had me check other things, too. i soon forgot to take a break and eat lunch. in the store, eating is not allowed in order to keep pests away...so at around 6pm i was hypoglycemic...my sugar was running low and i was starting to feel dizzy then. i was also having miscalculations in my transactions, so i knew i had to find a solution quickly. i didn't want to distract anyone, though- so i simply asked for a bottle of coke to keep me standing there. it was good enough to get my presence of mind back, but not good for my stomach due to the resulting increase in acidity.-.-
at around 7:30 my mother called me to a particular area by the stock room to have dinner. the viand was fried fish. typically i don't like fish that is not served hot, but my hunger overwhelmed me, so i just wolfed down three fish and a bit of rice. yum. and then i expressed to my mother how amazed i am with her endurance...being able to stay there and take care of the operations. it's quite a task for just one person, really. i felt glad to know then that my coming to the office has helped my mother in finishing some accounting tasks for today. i believe that this experience has taught me a lot. the most important thing i got is a more profound understanding of my mother's recent experiences. she's quite a woman. i can proudly say that she's a great sister to my uncle and a good mother to me. she's so persevering. i wish i had the same level of perseverance... but now i realize, i need so much more to learn how to handle things that efficiently.
on the way home, i played some of my songs... in particular i played and played safe and sound (taylor swift) and in heaven (jyj). earlier in the afternoon i had the chance to organize my playlists, espcially the new set of songs which my friend had shared with me, so i decided to test them on the road. the music got me in the mood, so i urged my mom to eat something. i was just supposed to get a serving of vanilla frappuccino, but i had to choose another option due to availability issues- i opted for a zinger double down - that's two slices of spicy chicken with bacon and cheese in between. i shared it with my mother, who thought that it was superb (her first time to try it)^^
now it's time to sleep. gonna read a book again and slip away to dreamland.
so this morning, after waking up from a despairing dream, i decided to spice up my day a bit by volunteering to come along with my mother to the drug store in bulacan, which is about an hour's drive away from our house. recently, my mother is managing the entire operations of the drug store, so she'd need all the help she could get. i figured that she needed it today in particular, because she had a lot of bank-related transactions to finish. someone always needs to keep an eye on the employees and man the main cashier booth...and just for today i decided to give it a try. so without much thought, i put on some casual clothes and went off with her.
i thought it was going to be easy, but soon i realized that running a pharmacy is not at all simple. there was no time to relax. as soon as i got in, i found myself counting and handing out cash and coins, being careful to keep the balance in the accounts. on the side, the employees had me check other things, too. i soon forgot to take a break and eat lunch. in the store, eating is not allowed in order to keep pests away...so at around 6pm i was hypoglycemic...my sugar was running low and i was starting to feel dizzy then. i was also having miscalculations in my transactions, so i knew i had to find a solution quickly. i didn't want to distract anyone, though- so i simply asked for a bottle of coke to keep me standing there. it was good enough to get my presence of mind back, but not good for my stomach due to the resulting increase in acidity.-.-
at around 7:30 my mother called me to a particular area by the stock room to have dinner. the viand was fried fish. typically i don't like fish that is not served hot, but my hunger overwhelmed me, so i just wolfed down three fish and a bit of rice. yum. and then i expressed to my mother how amazed i am with her endurance...being able to stay there and take care of the operations. it's quite a task for just one person, really. i felt glad to know then that my coming to the office has helped my mother in finishing some accounting tasks for today. i believe that this experience has taught me a lot. the most important thing i got is a more profound understanding of my mother's recent experiences. she's quite a woman. i can proudly say that she's a great sister to my uncle and a good mother to me. she's so persevering. i wish i had the same level of perseverance... but now i realize, i need so much more to learn how to handle things that efficiently.
on the way home, i played some of my songs... in particular i played and played safe and sound (taylor swift) and in heaven (jyj). earlier in the afternoon i had the chance to organize my playlists, espcially the new set of songs which my friend had shared with me, so i decided to test them on the road. the music got me in the mood, so i urged my mom to eat something. i was just supposed to get a serving of vanilla frappuccino, but i had to choose another option due to availability issues- i opted for a zinger double down - that's two slices of spicy chicken with bacon and cheese in between. i shared it with my mother, who thought that it was superb (her first time to try it)^^
now it's time to sleep. gonna read a book again and slip away to dreamland.
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