I just had another one of those special days with my UST friends...I have to give it to God...he's soo smart at coming up with things to keep me from crying. Or feeling depressed in my state. Hahaha.
Anyway, it's been done, hehehe.
What I want to discuss here is the problem of greed when it eats through our hearts. My heart, for one, finds it hard sometimes to resist coveting things that are not meant for me. Yes, and I believe only a few would know of it...
I recall my dear aunt's words to me, "Do not nurse unnecessary feelings." I think it is so with my untimely wants at this season. I believe in God's time, that the things meant for us to have will be given to us.
Honestly I am recently struggling with a big bad want, a whim which I hope to take care of as soon as possible. Not that I will satisfy it by getting that one thing I want the most in my heart right now. I sincerely believe that it is not for me to decide to possess such a beautiful thing, that God has other plans for me. Which is why I am struggling...with this profound knowledge that I should lose this fight for that want...for the sake of everyone around me and me as well. My heart tells me to grab it and go, but my mind shouts valid reasoning.
Man's foresight covers a mere short range of what is to be...
I guess that's it...I do have to pray before taking the fall...
"I am not losing this war because I am afraid of the challenge. I am losing it for the purpose of necessity, which I believe shows more of what bravery I have...enough to face the fear of losing something I am not supposed to have. "
Happy and sleepy sunday
1:57 am on my cel time. Darn! I was supposed to greet Christian a happy birthday during midnight...grr...oh, well...I still texted him, whatever...then snore back to my dream...zzzz...I)
7:59 am on the cel screen- I woke up side-lying (oh, so that's how I sleep...) on the left part of my bed this morning, feeling like I just had 6 full cups of red wine. The house was silent of course, with my bros out for the weekend in their basketball tourney. I cleaned up what looked like remnants of the daliy tornado outside my territory, ate breakfast (1.5 slice of bacon cheezeburger pizza) and sat in front of the computer to start my day fine.
...ok, sure there's tons of work to finish (don't let me start), 3 (or 4) long quizzes to make up for monday (2 hours extention of the regular hours, san ka pa), but I do need a loosening up after two long weeks of no staying home, with 2 good Sundays leaving me more exhausted and drained, hahaha.
You know, I can almost hear my (OC-OC) blockmates freaking out with that thought of mine...I know it's a losing battle but Peach- the somewhat rebellious, sluggish girl (you got me) who seems to do full force only when it's cramming time, wahaha (no, wait- don't hit me yet- read on...)
Since I was alone I took advantage of my privacy and listened to my latest cd, checked my email, read 3 blogs, browsed related friendster accounts, later YM- dialogue with Shuri, a fun chat with Riema, Robin, and Tif...then later, i concluded my online time with a stolen (stolen, kasi takot ako bka magicng c ma nd mahuli ako nang d oras) game series of O2 jammin' with Tif in which she defeated me in one round, hahaha- nice one, keep level-upping!!!
Then Ma woke up with a bad head just as I decided to start hitting the books (OK, fine- Holy Spirit intervention's the only way to my hard head?!! Wahahaha). She made me do some tasks, one of which was urging her to eat (which is really tough especially with a picky appetite). Then I set objectives, about 6 of them I think- and started to study whatever I can. But not long after that I began to feel sleepy (not again), so I decided to stand up and cook PC (not personal computer, pancit canton^^) for my choice of lunch.
And study I did. In the middle of that I transfered a few notes to my room and there I slept a bit (the flesh is weak..?), about a good hour, and then I woke up with a new fill of energy, which motivated me to go go go! I took an enormous bite out of my hard cookie of work for an hour.
In the middle of my concentration, my heart leapt with joy at the sight of my Aunt coming into the room- she just arrived from her pastor works. She invited me outside my territory to eat some coconut, which is one of my weaknesses, hehehe. I protested, but my feet quickly carried me to the kitchen (and the outside world).
Later I happened to remember my online assignment in NSTP (due at 11:59 pm!), which led me here. And thankfully I checked my email too, coz I received the news that we only have 3-4 scheduled quizzes for Monday, not the previously announced 5-6 (makeups included, of course).
OK! While my brothers and my Ma are speaking ill of blogging and my blogging habits at the moment (oh, fantastic), let me tell you that I have to leave shortly after this to eat my first real meal for the evening (my father cooked it in Caloocan), and as Ma had told me earlier this eve, sleep early so that I'd be ready to leave tomorrow at 4 am sharp.
So! I'm going? Tag me whenever...and I hope you adore my latest skin as much as I do, hahaha!
7:59 am on the cel screen- I woke up side-lying (oh, so that's how I sleep...) on the left part of my bed this morning, feeling like I just had 6 full cups of red wine. The house was silent of course, with my bros out for the weekend in their basketball tourney. I cleaned up what looked like remnants of the daliy tornado outside my territory, ate breakfast (1.5 slice of bacon cheezeburger pizza) and sat in front of the computer to start my day fine.
...ok, sure there's tons of work to finish (don't let me start), 3 (or 4) long quizzes to make up for monday (2 hours extention of the regular hours, san ka pa), but I do need a loosening up after two long weeks of no staying home, with 2 good Sundays leaving me more exhausted and drained, hahaha.
You know, I can almost hear my (OC-OC) blockmates freaking out with that thought of mine...I know it's a losing battle but Peach- the somewhat rebellious, sluggish girl (you got me) who seems to do full force only when it's cramming time, wahaha (no, wait- don't hit me yet- read on...)
Since I was alone I took advantage of my privacy and listened to my latest cd, checked my email, read 3 blogs, browsed related friendster accounts, later YM- dialogue with Shuri, a fun chat with Riema, Robin, and Tif...then later, i concluded my online time with a stolen (stolen, kasi takot ako bka magicng c ma nd mahuli ako nang d oras) game series of O2 jammin' with Tif in which she defeated me in one round, hahaha- nice one, keep level-upping!!!
Then Ma woke up with a bad head just as I decided to start hitting the books (OK, fine- Holy Spirit intervention's the only way to my hard head?!! Wahahaha). She made me do some tasks, one of which was urging her to eat (which is really tough especially with a picky appetite). Then I set objectives, about 6 of them I think- and started to study whatever I can. But not long after that I began to feel sleepy (not again), so I decided to stand up and cook PC (not personal computer, pancit canton^^) for my choice of lunch.
And study I did. In the middle of that I transfered a few notes to my room and there I slept a bit (the flesh is weak..?), about a good hour, and then I woke up with a new fill of energy, which motivated me to go go go! I took an enormous bite out of my hard cookie of work for an hour.
In the middle of my concentration, my heart leapt with joy at the sight of my Aunt coming into the room- she just arrived from her pastor works. She invited me outside my territory to eat some coconut, which is one of my weaknesses, hehehe. I protested, but my feet quickly carried me to the kitchen (and the outside world).
Later I happened to remember my online assignment in NSTP (due at 11:59 pm!), which led me here. And thankfully I checked my email too, coz I received the news that we only have 3-4 scheduled quizzes for Monday, not the previously announced 5-6 (makeups included, of course).
OK! While my brothers and my Ma are speaking ill of blogging and my blogging habits at the moment (oh, fantastic), let me tell you that I have to leave shortly after this to eat my first real meal for the evening (my father cooked it in Caloocan), and as Ma had told me earlier this eve, sleep early so that I'd be ready to leave tomorrow at 4 am sharp.
So! I'm going? Tag me whenever...and I hope you adore my latest skin as much as I do, hahaha!
My new ahia is a cool guy
Ahia Jonathan is sooo cool...grabe, as in. And who would have thought na from some old school acquaintance eh magiging close kami...hmm...still a mystery on how our paths crossed. Dati kasi parang wla lang, d tlg ngkakalapit ang landas namin. Now he's even my groupmate for all the activities. Yah, it's official- we'll be spending a good three years together in the same classes, same dilemmas, and same Friday home jeep trips (as ordered by my mammita who still refuses to let me go alone, hahahaha). It's not apparent, but he's sweet (hala bulgar na to, bka mgalit xa) but in a differently gud (and platonic) way.
He's my companion. He insists on walking me after class. He won't go home until he's sure that I am really home...kya nga pag gumagala pa ko around sj he's still there, as in, ang kulit. Sometimes I argue with him about it (among all those things that we debate about in the afternoons). I just think he's supposed to be home instead of staying to check that I'm ok and good in mama's eyes (which btw I independently maintain as promised, thanks).
He eats with me and doesn't make me feel like I have to be some poised lady or what. And he doesn't mind me eating whatevers- he's a food adventurer, so unlike me. I like the comfort that I get in being with him most of my school days, especially when I'm feeling bad, or missing my special crushie for some few hours. Sa aral, motto niya lagi, 'no pressure.' Sa pag-uusap namin, 'enlightening.' Sa itsura ko after a long day, 'mukha kang stressed.' Hahahaha!
He's got this trademark of looking out for me. May ilang beses na rin niya kong nasasabihan like, 'change your clothes.' after pe or dance practices. Or pag di pa ko eat, he'll accompany me to the waffle stall. And during those times when I passively tell him my desire to join whatever clubs or teams, etc., I discovered later on na tine-takedown niya pla ung mga skeds for audition and requirements sa kanyang cell, then later remind me of them! When I go overboard on making a fool of myself in public, he'd always tell me off in a very gentle manner so I'd stop my mischief, even if that means disobeying my desire to mess around, hehehe. He's also looking out for my clothes, my uniform- almost wanted to drag me along Dapitan to Aling Ising's just to get them. And whenever we 'd need some items for class (syringes, needles, etc.), he's offer to buy them for me and I'll of course pay them later na lang.
Minsan bad rin siya. There was one time we went to Chowking after pe out of my halohalo whim (kahit na sinisipon ako, wahu), and ngkataon dumaan si crushie ko from section 5, bsta. And when I pointed him out for him to see, aba, bad reaction! Pangit daw choice ko (pati ba naman ikaw, magsama kayo ni Christian). Wehehehe.
He's a respectable man in my opinion. He's got a lot of logic between his ears, independent nga eh. Bait, of course. And now, he's my real friend. :) I just hope he stays, despite his claims na he might just be using me for the meantime (what if daw). Binatukan ko nga, sabi ko tuloy na lossnaman niya un kung pumalag siya sa samahan namin, coz makakaaway niya si dear Mark, si anak kong Yani, and family, yehey! hehehe.
He's my companion. He insists on walking me after class. He won't go home until he's sure that I am really home...kya nga pag gumagala pa ko around sj he's still there, as in, ang kulit. Sometimes I argue with him about it (among all those things that we debate about in the afternoons). I just think he's supposed to be home instead of staying to check that I'm ok and good in mama's eyes (which btw I independently maintain as promised, thanks).
He eats with me and doesn't make me feel like I have to be some poised lady or what. And he doesn't mind me eating whatevers- he's a food adventurer, so unlike me. I like the comfort that I get in being with him most of my school days, especially when I'm feeling bad, or missing my special crushie for some few hours. Sa aral, motto niya lagi, 'no pressure.' Sa pag-uusap namin, 'enlightening.' Sa itsura ko after a long day, 'mukha kang stressed.' Hahahaha!
He's got this trademark of looking out for me. May ilang beses na rin niya kong nasasabihan like, 'change your clothes.' after pe or dance practices. Or pag di pa ko eat, he'll accompany me to the waffle stall. And during those times when I passively tell him my desire to join whatever clubs or teams, etc., I discovered later on na tine-takedown niya pla ung mga skeds for audition and requirements sa kanyang cell, then later remind me of them! When I go overboard on making a fool of myself in public, he'd always tell me off in a very gentle manner so I'd stop my mischief, even if that means disobeying my desire to mess around, hehehe. He's also looking out for my clothes, my uniform- almost wanted to drag me along Dapitan to Aling Ising's just to get them. And whenever we 'd need some items for class (syringes, needles, etc.), he's offer to buy them for me and I'll of course pay them later na lang.
Minsan bad rin siya. There was one time we went to Chowking after pe out of my halohalo whim (kahit na sinisipon ako, wahu), and ngkataon dumaan si crushie ko from section 5, bsta. And when I pointed him out for him to see, aba, bad reaction! Pangit daw choice ko (pati ba naman ikaw, magsama kayo ni Christian). Wehehehe.
He's a respectable man in my opinion. He's got a lot of logic between his ears, independent nga eh. Bait, of course. And now, he's my real friend. :) I just hope he stays, despite his claims na he might just be using me for the meantime (what if daw). Binatukan ko nga, sabi ko tuloy na lossnaman niya un kung pumalag siya sa samahan namin, coz makakaaway niya si dear Mark, si anak kong Yani, and family, yehey! hehehe.
Si Anni...kinikilig na naman
Epal at yari na naman ang sistema ng pagdaloy ng dugo ko...isipin nyo nmn kung kyo rin ang nsa klagyan ko mrahil ganun din kyo.
Ay, kasi eto ung kwnto- ung crush k ngkta n nmn kmi, eh umeepal n nmn kht na cnbi k n na behave dpt xa, hahahaha...tpos un, eh ako naman ay mababaw lang na nilalang, kya un, pagkaalis ng bruho, ngtttlon ako, hahaha!
Hmmm...pero sbi nga ng mga friends k, mga pare at mare, fans at hindi (as if!), bad taste daw ako s mga lalaki, ay nko. Eh paki ba nila, eh sa mta ko mainit cla, so ako naman si tingin, admire, at tingin pa uli hahahaha!
Ksi naman s totoo lang hindi ako ung tipong taong ngbbgy ng msyadong hlaga sa mga crushes k...isipin nyo n lng, kht ako nttwa pg naiicp ko na kung halimbawa lng nmn n lht ng nging crush k ay pinangarap ko, eh naka, patay tayo riyan...dami k n bf. D n rn ako sali sa samahang NBSB (no bf since birth)! :P
Ang crush hindi equals love sa kin. Bsta. Sa katunayan tinatawanan ko lang sa ngayon ang posibilidad na magkasyota dahil alam kong hindi ito naaayon sa aking prinsipyo at prioridad. Sa kasalukuyan lang ako sigurado. Malay natin bukas ung crush ko pla jowa k n (ano?!!) hahahah! Exampol lang mga ppl. Bsta ang akin eh ung hindi sumasalungat sa batas ng Diyos.
Sa pag-ibig: So with an answer as indefinite as 'Why my dear Mark is soo mataray', "What is love?" (I'm referring exculsively to the 'special someone', take note)
I have formulated a compressed answer for this. To me, my special someone is a very dear friend of mine who happens to be a guy, whom I trust and care about, whom I know needs me as I need him, who complements me as I complement him, a Christian who walks closely with God and lives only for Jesus...and surely wants me in his life for good (dapat!). O d b...
OK! My qualifications are set. But thankfully (and maybe to some of you, sadly) God's time for my turn isn't set- yet? Hehehe. And I'm cool with that. Sure, it's a bit pressuring for me to control my hormones (and myself!) from going out there and picking one for the sheer pleasure of it. But the gift of this time of single blessedness is simply a wise way to mature even more not only physically, emotionally, and mentally, but also- and most especially- in the aspect of faith in our Master.
I am certain that only a few would truly comprehend this dynamic concept, and I am soo sure that fewer than that would even like to try it for themselves. But I assure you that I have no regrets handling the situation with these principles in mind. :)
So much for love. Time to post!
Ay, kasi eto ung kwnto- ung crush k ngkta n nmn kmi, eh umeepal n nmn kht na cnbi k n na behave dpt xa, hahahaha...tpos un, eh ako naman ay mababaw lang na nilalang, kya un, pagkaalis ng bruho, ngtttlon ako, hahaha!
Hmmm...pero sbi nga ng mga friends k, mga pare at mare, fans at hindi (as if!), bad taste daw ako s mga lalaki, ay nko. Eh paki ba nila, eh sa mta ko mainit cla, so ako naman si tingin, admire, at tingin pa uli hahahaha!
Ksi naman s totoo lang hindi ako ung tipong taong ngbbgy ng msyadong hlaga sa mga crushes k...isipin nyo n lng, kht ako nttwa pg naiicp ko na kung halimbawa lng nmn n lht ng nging crush k ay pinangarap ko, eh naka, patay tayo riyan...dami k n bf. D n rn ako sali sa samahang NBSB (no bf since birth)! :P
Ang crush hindi equals love sa kin. Bsta. Sa katunayan tinatawanan ko lang sa ngayon ang posibilidad na magkasyota dahil alam kong hindi ito naaayon sa aking prinsipyo at prioridad. Sa kasalukuyan lang ako sigurado. Malay natin bukas ung crush ko pla jowa k n (ano?!!) hahahah! Exampol lang mga ppl. Bsta ang akin eh ung hindi sumasalungat sa batas ng Diyos.
Sa pag-ibig: So with an answer as indefinite as 'Why my dear Mark is soo mataray', "What is love?" (I'm referring exculsively to the 'special someone', take note)
I have formulated a compressed answer for this. To me, my special someone is a very dear friend of mine who happens to be a guy, whom I trust and care about, whom I know needs me as I need him, who complements me as I complement him, a Christian who walks closely with God and lives only for Jesus...and surely wants me in his life for good (dapat!). O d b...
OK! My qualifications are set. But thankfully (and maybe to some of you, sadly) God's time for my turn isn't set- yet? Hehehe. And I'm cool with that. Sure, it's a bit pressuring for me to control my hormones (and myself!) from going out there and picking one for the sheer pleasure of it. But the gift of this time of single blessedness is simply a wise way to mature even more not only physically, emotionally, and mentally, but also- and most especially- in the aspect of faith in our Master.
I am certain that only a few would truly comprehend this dynamic concept, and I am soo sure that fewer than that would even like to try it for themselves. But I assure you that I have no regrets handling the situation with these principles in mind. :)
So much for love. Time to post!
First Day High!
Oy, byaan nyo, d nmn ako kakanta nung rexona song ng Kamikaze, hahaha...though that would be fun, wahooo!
June 13- siyempers sa totoo lang ung mga freshies naiisahan lang nito, ang real first day ksi is 14 pero for sophies of course different ang kaso. orientation daw, cge...tpos un pla sariling commute papunta sa venue, sa Sta. Mesa pa no, grr! Buti n lng at kasama ko si Jonathan, streetwise at adventurous so we got there ok- bilad sa araw pero ok, hehehe.
Orientation- lasted from 1030-100. Boring coz it's all ranting, but the topics presented to us were very...interesting. We were given a taste of what we're about to do real soon. One of them happens in the maternity ward (PUSHHHHH!!!!!!!!! But not before- 'insert two fingers measurement') xp. The other means injecting meself...to lern how to vaccinate others (feel the pain first so you'll be merciful daw on your victims- ah, i mean- patients, hahaha!).
Rainy interlude- bumuhos ang ulan. (To the unprepared others- Yei, i can use my red umbrella, nyehehehehe- joke!)xp Baaad Peachie! Ma was away so ptay syempre id have to wait, bt then with Ma's consent, pumayag xa go back me sa Mendiola area bsta may ksma mgjeep- buti ok lang k Jonathan, bless him...so un ngjeep kmi sa buhos ng ulan, then bond n chat dun sa kfc over lunch. Ngantay n rn kmi ng 300 dsmissal (firs day d b?xp) at mdyo ngliwaliw sa skul at churchyrd b4 xa uwi. Super thnx to him at d ako ngbulok dun sa venue! :)
Cousin bonding- Pinaalam k muna cna shane alain at david (my cousins^^) at ngbond kmi s kfc wyl w8ng for their sundo to come by. umulan n nman ng pgkalakas2, so buti anjan n c ma at sinundo pa kmi. :) shortly dumating rn erpat nla, then with a bit sadness hinatid k cla to the car kht ngshower n ko s ulan (pinayungan k eh), hahaha!
Uwi, tulog. Tulog. ZZZZZZZ.
June 13- siyempers sa totoo lang ung mga freshies naiisahan lang nito, ang real first day ksi is 14 pero for sophies of course different ang kaso. orientation daw, cge...tpos un pla sariling commute papunta sa venue, sa Sta. Mesa pa no, grr! Buti n lng at kasama ko si Jonathan, streetwise at adventurous so we got there ok- bilad sa araw pero ok, hehehe.
Orientation- lasted from 1030-100. Boring coz it's all ranting, but the topics presented to us were very...interesting. We were given a taste of what we're about to do real soon. One of them happens in the maternity ward (PUSHHHHH!!!!!!!!! But not before- 'insert two fingers measurement') xp. The other means injecting meself...to lern how to vaccinate others (feel the pain first so you'll be merciful daw on your victims- ah, i mean- patients, hahaha!).
Rainy interlude- bumuhos ang ulan. (To the unprepared others- Yei, i can use my red umbrella, nyehehehehe- joke!)xp Baaad Peachie! Ma was away so ptay syempre id have to wait, bt then with Ma's consent, pumayag xa go back me sa Mendiola area bsta may ksma mgjeep- buti ok lang k Jonathan, bless him...so un ngjeep kmi sa buhos ng ulan, then bond n chat dun sa kfc over lunch. Ngantay n rn kmi ng 300 dsmissal (firs day d b?xp) at mdyo ngliwaliw sa skul at churchyrd b4 xa uwi. Super thnx to him at d ako ngbulok dun sa venue! :)
Cousin bonding- Pinaalam k muna cna shane alain at david (my cousins^^) at ngbond kmi s kfc wyl w8ng for their sundo to come by. umulan n nman ng pgkalakas2, so buti anjan n c ma at sinundo pa kmi. :) shortly dumating rn erpat nla, then with a bit sadness hinatid k cla to the car kht ngshower n ko s ulan (pinayungan k eh), hahaha!
Uwi, tulog. Tulog. ZZZZZZZ.
Tagged! Tagged! Tagged! >:(
OK, peach has been tagged for reasons na di ko naman nalaman hanggang nabasa ko rin ung entry ni Madame Schizoesque! Well, since I am not at all busy here, I might as well follow the instructions...and later tag someone too, bwahahahahaha- (honestly this is a fun way to uncover some interesting info in you guys...)
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Instructions:
1. The tagged victim (apparently, me) has to come up with 8 different descriptions of their perfect lover.
2. He/she needs to mention the sex/gender of their perfect lover.
3. He/she must tag 8 more people to join this game and leave a comment on their comments saying they've been tagged.
4. If tagged a second time, there's no need to post again.
(Naku, I don't wish to be idealistic, but my these, as JR and I had discussed not long ago, serve as guidelines-)
Gender: Male! (No in-betweens!)
1st: (Cannot be compromised) He is a certified Christian, a devoted bondservant of Christ.
2nd: (Cannot be compromised) He belongs to my inner circle of trustees.
3rd: (Cannot be compromised) Matalino! (Meaning, hindi siya engot- esp. with grammar, naku!)
4th: He never fails to make me laugh, kalogers- may amusing measure of 'kulit.'
5th: He is a true friend who goes the distance to spend time with me.
6th: He loves to eat (para same kami) and is a food adventurer (para maiba).
7th: He is an adventurer at heart (mahilig sa outdoors and new places).
8th: He can cook, do the laundry (whether manual or not), sweep and mop the floor as well as I can, and wash dishes (aka marunong sa buhay).
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Man! Hersch, napaisip ako! But oh well, some of these can still change (but not the first 3).
FYI: (Just a tidbit-) I'm not at all worried about meeting my 'perfect lover,' coz believe me or not, I tell you now that the person I'm going out with next is my husband, in God's grace.:)
OK, meanwhile, I'm tagging next! :P
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Instructions:
1. The tagged victim (apparently, me) has to come up with 8 different descriptions of their perfect lover.
2. He/she needs to mention the sex/gender of their perfect lover.
3. He/she must tag 8 more people to join this game and leave a comment on their comments saying they've been tagged.
4. If tagged a second time, there's no need to post again.
(Naku, I don't wish to be idealistic, but my these, as JR and I had discussed not long ago, serve as guidelines-)
Gender: Male! (No in-betweens!)
1st: (Cannot be compromised) He is a certified Christian, a devoted bondservant of Christ.
2nd: (Cannot be compromised) He belongs to my inner circle of trustees.
3rd: (Cannot be compromised) Matalino! (Meaning, hindi siya engot- esp. with grammar, naku!)
4th: He never fails to make me laugh, kalogers- may amusing measure of 'kulit.'
5th: He is a true friend who goes the distance to spend time with me.
6th: He loves to eat (para same kami) and is a food adventurer (para maiba).
7th: He is an adventurer at heart (mahilig sa outdoors and new places).
8th: He can cook, do the laundry (whether manual or not), sweep and mop the floor as well as I can, and wash dishes (aka marunong sa buhay).
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Man! Hersch, napaisip ako! But oh well, some of these can still change (but not the first 3).
FYI: (Just a tidbit-) I'm not at all worried about meeting my 'perfect lover,' coz believe me or not, I tell you now that the person I'm going out with next is my husband, in God's grace.:)
OK, meanwhile, I'm tagging next! :P
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