Don't read if you're an antichrist

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I just watched Mel Gibson's Passion of the Christ movie...violently portrayed yet as realistic as he can possibly make it to be...pero honestly may mga mistakes pa rin, like ung pinalo sa kanya, it's not just a whip- from expert speculation, ung ginamit dw dti ung handle na at the end, a bunch of ordinary ropes, pero may mga broken glasses at each end- so imagine the agony kung ihahataw sa bare back mo un...my goodness, sympre at evry stoke pati balat mo sasama...*shiver*

But that's not really why I'm writing here to pour out my emo (yeah, but whatever, this is my space here and I'm not hurting anyone with intention). Today ko lang ksi xa npanood. And sa totoo lang, I can very well understand why marami ang nakiramdam sa movie na to.

I cried with the scenes...di ko na nabilang, hahaha.

I initially found myself laughing a bit coz of course, I've known this story na long before, pero it's just now that I realized how much I haven't put into my heart yet. Well, my aunt recently told me na yan ang prob ko- I simply know God by head, pero I mostly forget to love Him with my heart. Yun bang, yes, I know Christ died violently- naresearch ko nga step-by-step how he died in the physiological sense. But how violently, I haven't really had a good insight through the eyes of my heart.

And thus, I am humbled.

Naisip ko, Lord, ako eto complain ako nang complain about what's happening in my life, na hindi ako macontento sa grades ko, sa parents ko, sa sinasabi ng mga tao about me...na sa failures ko nagpapatalo kaagad ako...na konting discouragement lang I stumble back with fear...na pag nagkakasala ako minsan nababalewala ko na lang...na hindi lang minsan na pinagdudahan ko kayo, pinagkaila sa madla dahil ako ay isang duwag...yes, Jesus- I am selfish, I am dishonest, I am a traitor, I am a sloth, a bad example, a disgrace to your glory, a hypocrite, a very disobedient girl, an envious brat.

Sometimes I don't know if I should even be rightfully called a Christian. I am so weak. I am such a doubter, na even sa mga graces na binibigay niyo nag-aalangan ako (especially my friends, na alam ko galing sa iyo pero natatakot ako magbigay, magshare...). I have been doing my own kind of vengeance to my father, and you know as I know that you see it all and you hurt. I am led astray by my own actions. You persistently pull me back, but I insist on being 'free' in my sinful ways.

Yes. I am...human. A natural sinner, among all things.

And yet...for all these things...this foul life I've been leading...you died. You came here, the incarnate, suffered in the hands of mere men whom you may have smitten if it was in your will, but no...you chose to die for me- and for everyone. You could have left man to burn in hell, but with all the love you have there...you still pick humanity up and let us choose to believe in your salvific plan. And no, that wasn't enough for you- you even led me to you in the midst of my suffering- I remember those moments, and I thank you for them.

Alam mo, I know deep within I've been praying to you...I know of my filth. I know of my unworthiness. I know of my sins. Lately naghehesitate na nga ako magkwento ng tungkol sa araw ko sa inyo kasi I feel so dirty...I feel like a slut who has allowed so much sin into her hands...

But on the other hand...who is worthy to be called good anyway? Nobody is innocent. Nobody is good. Nobody is holy, but Jesus, the good shepherd who is surely sinless but died a horrible death. He allowed himself to bleed so much so that we may know salvation as we have it...and have a chance to be with him in the next life.

Alam ko, you are not pleased with my actions. And I do not want to go on like this...straight to the path of ignorance, no Lord, you have given me wisdom and I would like to use it now to ask for your unending forgiveness. And you have said in the scriptures that I should not worry...so help me. Give me strength that I may fully lay down all unnecessary worries right there in the foot of your cross. Give me patience that I may be a light to others, be Christlike for others to be inspired...and follow you.

I know I will never be perfect, and I will have to constantly grow by choice. In spirit, be with me always. Make me hunger for you, thirst for your word so that I may know you...and let yourself be revealed to be everyday. Make me need you and yearn for you so intensely that I will not pay unnecessary attention to material things...for in you is true happiness, in you is true wisdom, in you is true satisfaction. Humble me each day as I seek to understand you more...that I may grow to love you in familiarity and faith.

Give me your insight in the midst of my daily persecutions...hear me when I call out to you if I should be your instrument for the salvation of others through the word. I know they know not what I live for, what I accept...what I portray...let me not fall into their taunting and influence. Let me remain in you wherever I go and whoever I go with. Purify my relationship with my brothers and sisters, whom you command me to love without condition...as you do with me.

Have mercy as I cry out for my loved ones, my family and friends so that they may know you...show them, impress to them your might, the truth that you exist to save...that it is only by knowing you well and having a relationship with you that we can ever be complete. No, not by grades, not with other people, not money, not expensive stuff, not a top career, not fame, not parental approval, not a professional title...only you, dear Lord, only you.

All this I ask in your name...Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior. Amen.

I wasted one day?! hmm...

I am sort of annoyed with the weathermen who don't really do their jobs well. Because of their inaccurate prediction of the 'storm,' sinuspend tuloy ng dep-ed ung pasok sa thursday, nutrition subject. Yeah, it's a make-up class alright, but still, it's a waste having to sit here in the house when I could have finished off with that quiz. And more other tasks, too.

But on the other hand, my sensible mind tells me those guys in PAGASA did their jobs well. It's better safe than sorry. And sure, let the students rest for the weekend...(yeah right)

Honestly I completed a lot of tasks this weekend, so I wouldn't say na waste ang break ko. I cooked meals for my fam, bonding time with them, blog read and write, over-watched tv, played with Lebron (ung new dog namin na di pla alam ni Jrep!- look at him, pic nya)...ayun.

At oo nga pla, nakausap ko na rin si Repi so complete na naman ang week ko (ano ka, vitamin c? hahahaha!). No, seriously this friend of mine...grabe, ang tiyaga tumawag, ksi nmn wrong timing, kung di ako nasa kusina, nagluluto naman ako. Pero sa wakas kanina we finally talked a bit. But even then I hope to see him sometime...

BTW, sj friends! Saan ba ang lakad this season? :) love y'all, tc tc...^^

Foursome SNs

Christian Jords KR Me

Aw, I am so thrilled here...still holding up our smiles kahit super chaotic na ng med audi...

Ceremony for beacons (as if hahaha)

Monumental, people. Weird, funny, but special.

Like my course and me. Hehehe.

Nov. 14, 2006. A special day for the nurses of the UST College of Nursing batch 2009. Capping na kasi.

During the day (esp. in the am) marami pang nangyari, pero I’ll just limit my chitchat here to just some
fun points…

First Impression: Ako sa totoo nung una ala lang sa kin, as in la ako paki coz I thought it was just some regular program. Pero goodness, we had to march pala sa aisle (think like graduation, with graduation music accompaniment pa, which I initially thought was not serious nung una pero well…un na un, hahahaha!)

Practice: The day before, san ka pa!? But I guess the faculty members have obviously done this before to other batches, so I just let them instruct us. Pati nurse’s hymn (oo, meron, adik!) that day rin lng tinuro. Sintunado at hopeless daw kami sabi ni Ma’am Famorca (super cool at super galing na head ng faculty), but whatever, we’re not in the music course naman ah, so let us be…wehehe!

Costume: Full duty outfit (with apron). During practice sabi sa min magpaayos dw kmi ng bun sa ibng tao para maayos daw at di kami sabog pag umakyat ng stage. Ako yoko naman tlg, coz of course first of all I hate wearing makeup and having other people touch my crowning glory coz it’s soo not me, and second, I thought nga la lng ung program (I even discouraged my parents to go coz it’s a waste of their precious time).

But my ma got wind of my capping affair, so naturally, I came to Dapitan looking like Barbie or somethin’…(bsta I think the blushies are too thick for me)

Checkpoints: Seryoso, galing nila sa sistema! Mga nars tlg oh…we were told to fall in line…tawa na lang ako ksi funny parang checkpoint tlg xa eh! It really surprised (and impressed) me.

(1) 2^nd flr, skills lab. Check outfit if complete and spotless. If yes, prof will insert something where the cap will be secured. (Boys no need, duh)

(2) Next room. Check uniform (again, yes). If ok, get lamp and candle from prof.

(3) 4^th flr med audi. No entry until marching time. No bags allowed. No things in apron pocket.

(4) At entry, stop. 3 profs will fix you up right before marching up the aisle.

(5) Side of stage. Apron pocket check. Prof checkup x2.

Dilemma ko tlg ksi 3x ako nasita, hehehe. From that small spot sa white shoe ko (I scrubbed it with chlorox and laundry soap, ano pa ba) up to that last checking na may cell ako sa apron…ay, bisto tlg…adik mga prof ko but I love them all naman, cool cla lahat, so far la pa tlg ako na-eencounter na ‘epal’ or ‘not good enough’ dito sa nursing, which is great news, of course.

Ceremony: So what did I do? Hmm…well inilawan muna namin ung lamp namin (Mark lit my candle, pinag-usapan pa namin un, hahaha over) then tinawag kami, two at a time sa stage. Then nilagyan ng caps while kneeling.

Confession: Hmm, kakahiya man aminin pero siguro kung hindi dahil kay Spongky na nagjjoketime sa tbi ko at kay KR, Carla, Jo na naging source of distraction, at kay Mark na nagpatawa sa kin, naluha siguro ako sa ceremony. Hehehe.

Visitors: Mama. I thought la xa balak pmunta, pero well kahit dinissuade na go go pa rin xa, yehey! Parked at SM San Lazaro and walked all the way back to Med building for me. Aw. It also moved me na si Sahia ko balak pla go pero may class pa xa nun. But the thought counted a lot for me.

Hayun, e di eto na, Anniline Chua Teng, SN, signing off…god bless you.

Have a laugh (the first and second day)

Dapitan, 6:35pm, Nov. 7, 2005...second day of class-

Waiting for my ma to come through the traffic jam and fetch me for my beauty rest. Come on, I've been here in ust today from 7:30am up to this moment...have to steal chance to get rested before I get excited (with schoolwork, of course).

Speaking of which, tinambakan na kami kahapon ng female prof ko sa MCN (mother and child nursing- major namin) ng hwork on the first day right after her orientation (man, she's soo scary she still caused me to hypoventilate this am- which btw is our second meeting). No, she's no terror though, wouldn't say that...she's just the type who can make you brace for her next move...I can't explain her hocus pocus...she just has that 'air', hahaha. Her stare (she's doing it on purpose- as in like kanina lang, bending soo close to me na maybe just 5-7 inches away na sa kin ung face nya- *shivers*) made me sing 'eye of the tiger' in my head as I constantly experienced dyspnea (difficulty in breathing, hehehe). But she can be oh so funny, though yes, the personified ust tiger (whoo! tiger power!), di naman ferocious, but still...well, aminado naman xa eh- her statement?

"I'm not scary; I just bite."

Now YOU tell me what to do with her. Ha. Ha.

Now because of her I had bad dreams...yah, right! Hehehe. No, I had to spend a lot of time in the lib, rushing to the cafeteria xerox machine to produce copies of good sources of answers for me. Take note, first day ito! Adik tlg...hmph. T.T

Thank God for my friends na tinulungan pa ko, tuwa naman ako...ung isang salbahe sa min tinago pa ung kaisa-isang copy ng latest ed ng book-in-demand! hahaha! :P (bato-bato sa langit...joke!)

Hapon. Ung prof naman dun sa Physics ang kumulit, puro toilet jokes (kasi naman doctor xa eh, so disgusting but honestly speaking lang ung mga pinagsasabi niya to keep us up coz lapit na nga gumabi), so hayun...pati tpos ngsalitang seryoso...sabi niya, "You, watch out for my coming film..."

Lahat naman kami, "?"

He went on, "Casino Royale, ako bida dun, papalabas na."

Adik na prof. *rolls eyes and faints with a smile*

No wonder I have this great admiration for him...which people are starting to question (!) but he's just soo darned smart and kenkoy so what do I do but be a fan to him, hehe.

O, yan na muna, O2- stress reliever, hahaha!

Another conclusion

I am feeling rather senti today because well, as most of you are now aware of it- tapos na naman ang sem break (except for those studying in dlsu, hahaha).

It's always great to have a lengthy break, and it's always too short and bitin for the likes of us who want to just get away from the stress and struggles of being...well, a student.

Hmm...well, it won't last for long anyway, and those 4 or 5 years will soon pass. Badtrip ba? Hahaha. Whatever.

Anyway...kaya nga masarap rin mgbreak. Para hindi tayo magmulfunction. Sana lang alam yun ng mga profs ntin (and even our parents), don't you agree? I think most of them know that, kaya nga they give more work to torture us more, hahaha! Payback? Ewan ko, sila n lng nkakaalam nun.

At ngayon, tapos na naman ang 2006 sembreak, so I felt that I should do a 103th entry to keep the memory here...what the heck I love to write too, so here goes...

My sembreak started on Oct. 14. But it was a rocky start (or end) for me because I had to play chase with my profs from the 13th (it was even a friday, san ka pa) until the 18th (a wednesday, but it doesn't matter)...6 days of lovin' with my profs, whoo-hoo...

Oct. 26 was my real rest from all kinds of work. That's the day after my enrollment.

The educational part of my sembreak...I learned a lot from my make-ups and book-browsing. I also helped my ma in the perfume biz, learned a great deal. Yesterday was my first time to go home using only the train and a jeep...and yeah, a motorcycle coz I was too lazy to walk the distnce to our door, hehehe.

The mastering part of it...I improved on my housework skills, improved on the arcade scene, changed my shooting form in basketball (working on it), wrote free verse poetry and letters for my penpal (uso pa ba un?), studied the inner workings of the computer software (yah, I'm not a techie, but so what), downloaded songs, watched a lot of youtube shows...hahaha! Thanks to my friends, esp. Ozzy (for the dancing thing), of course (Jonreph better watch out!).

The most trying part of the period...taking care of Lebron (the new puppy in the house). Now I kinda know what it feels like to be a parent to some helpless little 5-month old you can just kill anytime but you wouldn't coz it's soo cute (and I'd go to jail...you know what I mean). Hahaha.

No seriously it's not easy, and it's very tiring...but the fulfillment is just...man, it's one of the coolest experiences...

Most refreshing part of sem break- my textmate of the break (meron pla nun, hahaha), flooder of my inbox, you meanie...a person I just love hating, si Mark (salamat sa iyong oras at load). At inuulit ko, HINDI ako bakla- just 60% girl, 40% guy. Nah, as if...babae po ako, undoubtedly.

Feel-good experiences...made new friends (for example, si Monching), went out to explore moa for UBEs (ultimate bonding experiences) with ust friends, kr, jrep and company, and finally yung kahapon with the sj peeps na hindi ko naman natiis (at finally nkasama si Herschel, had been waiting for that).

Firsts...made a complete silly crap of me (lagi naman ata, pero this time) by dancing on the dance pad with Cob (I missed this old chum, grabe, salamat uli) and Therese (yah, we're great). Got too excited and thrilled with Herschel finally agreeing to try the dance pad and the parapara dance (the one with the sensors, hehehe).

Mga awws- Sayang lang hindi ko nakasama si Sha for this break (maybe sa Xmas break, as Cob had mentioned). Pati si Mark, Jo, Julie, Daryll (we didn't get to go 'round the mall). At may mga dapat akong mkausap jan na hindi ko nkachika. Hmm. Tulad na lang ng dentist ko. Hahaha. At hindi na ko nakapag-tennis. Aw.

10 new goals already set (growing is supposed to be constant): I must...

1, do something to keep my relationship with Christ intact and working, esp. reading the Bible
2, make time for my friends and not spend it all on just a few of them (I'm very serious)
3, be more of myself and less of what is expected of me
4, hold on to my new lifestyle of deliberately closing all chances for any romantic relationship to come in now (even shallow bouts of crushes...man, even I can't believe I'm doing this...)
5, be more of a warm and friendly chatmate, meaning not being too selective (esp. with classmates)
6, avoid lateness in duties and classes
7, finish all work before wasting my time on other stuff
8, keep fit (don't engage in food binges just because I'm sad or I got a low grade)
9, act less stupid and stop getting shaken by MDs in the clinical setting (come on, tao rin sila)
10, save more cash and budget according to God's money principles (meron- use only 70% for basic needs, keep the 20% for savings and tithe the 10%- which makes me think about opening a bank account inside ust)

I look forward to:

• My capping ceremony (I wonder what will happen)
• Spending more time with Tif, Therese, and Mommy (they trasfered near ust kasi),
• Ust paskuhan (coz I have the love nest to spend it with, maybe even Tif!)
• Christmas break (coz I'll get to see my friends again)
• Dec. 26 (might just get out of the country and meet my cousin Lesley for the first time)
• New Year (reunion with my clan sa mother side)

Before I release this entry I would like to add this: Happy Birthday pala to my beloved friends who are celebrating their birthdays this month- Cob, 5; Bern, 8; Shuri, 19

Enrollment day

In Nitro hub, dapitan- with KR, Yani- 1:30pm, js had lunch at frio mixx

kr comment: (she actually typed this in just now-) I HATE THE WORLD... T_T

Hahaha...

Anyway, today my work in school ends for a while and sembreak is officially starting for me from this day forward. After yesterday nung nag-update ako out of boredom, I realized how much I missed being able to update and write write write! Just my thing to do to keep my stress level at bay...baka sumabog, hahaha!

Nag-enroll ako kanina with my people. Came in at 7am. But the guards won't let us enroll yet coz dpat ten p dw kmi pppsukin. Arrghh!

kr comment: *stabs manong guard 100x* wahahahahahahahahaha!!!

Ohboy...ahem. As I was saying...

Ung mga friends ko cla KR, Mark, and company- pawang mga shifters, nakalusot earlier at around 9am coz they're irregs, unlike me na tunay na 2nd yr p lng, huhu.

kr comment:as if masaya maging shifter... *sulks*

peach retaliates: *sabay batok* oy, kanina kya na-OP tlg ako, kala m! at dahil puro shifter kyong friends ko hindi lang nmn once na nramdman ko na sana shifter n lng rin ako no!!!

kr replies: *ouch* WELCOME TO OUR WORLD! *waves 'welcome!!!' banner* wahahahahahaha...

peach replies: *clasps hands together and shakes them above her head, with anime tears* I wish...huhuhuhu... *forms a pool of tears around her*

CUT! Wait! need na yta umuwi ni Yani...aww...(seriously, she needs to go back to Bicol pa)

Anyway! Ahem- before I was rudely interrupted... *aims an m16 rifle towards KR*

kr comment: me? interrupt? hell no! *hides from anniline*

OKOK, tma na nga! Ayy...*shakes head* So! Again dahil iniwan ako ng mga wlanghiyang mga shifter friends ko, no choice! I was left alone- almost! Kasi thankfully andun si Nanay Doli (Mark's mother side gran).

kr comment: kay jae lang ako walanghiya! *hugs jaejoong*

Fine, fine...whatever. Anyway...syempre imbis na boring at lonely girl lang ako dun (at oo, I need the training rin dahil takot pa rin ako sa new ppl) , chinika ko na lang habang nghhintay. (WT-??!!)

Just a while ago ilang ako makipagfriendshipz sa kanya, pero buti nalampasan ko ung takot na un. It turns out ang nice nice pla niya, very refreshing character for me who's always been around younger people and not someone as experienced as her.

Sarap kausap, hindi naman ako nailang or bored or anything like that. Hay. She's really fun, made me wish again I met any of my two grandmas, sigh. Basta, dami ko natutunan sa kanya.

Also, sa sobrang aliw ko, d k n nmalayan ngpass na ung oras, dumating na si Mark, alis na daw sila (darn wrong timing ka, grr) at ako naman ay kailangan ko na rin mg-enroll then (yey and aww). So babay to my new acquaintance and chupi na sila.

Eto lang- I wonder...will she remember me the next time we meet? I sure hope sooo, coz it'd be really hard to forget such a character, hehehe. :) bb

So! What's up Peach?

Sembreak has not really been sembreak for me. I still have my hands full, grades not released yet, so I don't clearly see the reason to take off my nursing whites and go back to being mentally retarded. (Or do I, really? lol)

Surprisingly, my eating habits have shifted from 'eat when you feel it' to 'one meal only coz I'm not in the mood and I just tend to forget.' Hahaha. This is contrary to my usual habit, which can be summed up to one word that a dear friend of mine- Christian- coined as, 'Polymacrophagia (eating too much)'.

Nah, I can't be too sure, maybe I'm just darn happy that my moods are improving, now that I do not need to cut my sleeping time just to flip through Microbiology and Parasitology by Robert Brown with my eyelids flipping as quickly, hahaha. Sheesh, those fungi, viruses, bacteria...whatever they are, so muiniscule, yet our grades depend on them! Arrgghh.

Or maybe make like Sir Rabago, shave my head, and meditate on the Reproductive System in the Anatomy and Physiology manual (oh, so that's how it looks like!) at 230 am sharp until the exam begins at 730 (all of which I have done- except the shaving head thing, just a delicious thought as I am sincerely inspired by my teacher's super genius brain- but not the hairdo though, hahahahaha).

But don't be too hasty to conclude that I hate these subjects I'm dealing with. On the contrary I have great love for these subjects (nerd!). I can't help hating them though, especially when it's a rushy task, which I so do not agree with. Dealing with these oh-so-lovable subjects is like eating a plate of good old spaghetti- it takes time to enjoy, coz cramming it all in spoils the great experience (unless you're one of those freakos who have no taste buds whatsoever for great cuisine).

Anyway, after friday probably my ma and I will be out in Pangasinan to visit her dead ma, my grandma, apparently, whom I never had the chance of meeting anytime in my 19 years of living. Hehe. But I heard that she's very pretty and multitalented, if that can serve as a reason for loving her at least. (Bad bad peachie!)

The beginning of sembreak has brought me mostly exciting events. They're not all filled with gaiety, but I can certainly type here that they're all great learning opportunities.

I made three new friends in my 15-hour makeup duty. No, that's not all about putting on cosmetics as a form of labor, people- it's nursing stuff where in you have to do various forms of patient care during that period of time.

Nilagay ako sa charity ward nung una, 5 hours. Next day, sa private naman, 10 hours. Now from the experience I'd say na it's more fulfilling for me to do duty sa charity, kasi dun mas malaya ka, mas mababait at friendly ang pasyente. At dahil dito feel ko mas maraming natututunan sa charity ward. Hayun.

Speaking of friends, today I had no choice but to turn down my good friend Osmond's invite to watch a movie in gateway (sayang, I had been wanting to watch the departed p man din, hay). I had no choice, coz my ma didn't want me to go anywhere. I laughed a lot when Os called me through his cell and said, "Ano ka ba? 18 ka na! Mag-commute ka na mag-isa, kaya mo yan." And I was like (in ma's presence), "19 na ko!" And he went on, "O sorry, correction- 19 ka na!" But ma won as always, obedience is the first law nga daw. And she was too relaxed to make an effort to take me to gateway. Haha.

Oh well. Maybe it wasn't meant to be. Besides, tomorrow is enrollment day, and have to be there early so that I can finish up early too, early bird rule, hehe. Which makes me wonder how things are going for them as they are now one person short of fun, hahaha! (Nah, I hope not...)

Moa trips. Grabe, dami ko niyan. Pero take note, hindi naman ako splurgee- kuripot nga ako eh. I love window shopping and giving my fashion views to my girl friends (if any, haha!) un lang.

Yet one day I happened to see this beautiful white top with a hood- an outfit that fitted me, coz to me the outfit stated, 'I might give you an impression of me being a bad girl. Or maybe not. But anyhow you wouldn't wanna mess with me, coz I'm still a girl.' Oo na, that's just me dictating that, but had it not been that expensive I would have thought about buying it (is this really me talking fashion here? Man, I'm changing...hahaha).

My cell's so alive these days. I am very happy to have my inbox singing out 'SIM memory 95% full' countless times since the 14th. :) Goodbye for now, nursing life! *digs a hole deep into the ground* Hello there, social life! (Ganun na nga ba un?! hahaha! No, but honestly it has been a busy life for me, work work work!).

I have a baby in the house! Awoo! Literally that way, coz he's a puppy, a shihtzu (for those who are in the know, it's a princess cut, not the standard size). Name's Lebron (as proposed by my bro, although I struck hard with Adobo...bakit ba, cute naman ah!!!). Recently, I am introduced to a life of scheduled feeding, cleaning, mopping, petting, hugging, and sermoning blues with this cute little monster worth 18000 in the local market. Kinda like having a newborn baby in the house minus the conception process. Kinda like a real-life tamagotchi. Hehehe.

But despite the extra work, I have no regrets whatsoever, coz he's honestly a cutesy helpless pup. The family obviously loves him.

Books at hand: Bible (NT) and Nurse's Guide (kinda like a skills lecture pocketbook)

Soundtrip galore!!! I have recent faves, inalis ko na ang alikabok sa gitara, bumili ng new songhits, at tumugtog. Downloads rin, happy...some of my faves as of now- Unfaithful by Rihanna, Have I Told You Lately by Rod Stewart, You Don't Know Me, Sway, Save The Last Dance by Michael Buble (Herschel, adik na ko sa songs niya!!!), Beer by Itchyworms, Doobidoo by Kamikaze, Yakap sa Dilim by Orange and Lemons...aaaaaa ang dami!!!

Gumagaling na ko sa O2 mania ko! Arianne my anak! Konti na lang at hahamunin na kita ulit! Bwahahahaha! Akala ko wla na kong pag-asa! So far I am practicing Bride in Dream Normal x4 very intently, para gumanda ang reflexes ko for that bashthekeyboard,slowpoke! game. And maybe, just maybe, I can go somewhere farther...

Ok, on the next stuffs...

After today I don't want to expect on November 4. Cob scheduled a go-see each other. I would like to have joining that as an option. But I don't really like getting disappointed so I'll just see how things go on that day. Then I'll ask ma if she feels like approving.

Also, I have this invite for Hanna's debut on friday, Oct. 27. Ma did not allow me, coz as a rule, no parties with uste ppl (and it still stands- teka, second yr na ko ah...hmm). But she did allow me to see Rep instead...sabi ni pareng JR we'll try a new thing daw on G4 (ewan at malay ko pa kung paano, wat tym, at cno2 ang ksma), play my new groove in the arcade daw (you'll have to go one-on-one with me to find out), and indulge in some extra special food before going home.

I am tempted to go with the positive feeling na tutuloy kami ni Repa, pero I don't want to anticipate coz un nga, ang inay ko, unpredictable like me, hahaha. Haay, kung alam niyo lang, three years from now (four at most) I will be leaving this country na as the whole family wants, ano pa ba ang gusto niya? Hay nko...

Bondings...

Grabe, nagiging close ako sa pamilya ko. Recently, more free time has given me more chances of bonding with my shoti Albert, talk and play PS with David, chatty with Shane, exchange dialogues with Sahia and Nin, be Ma's tagabuhat in grocery shopping, critic sa clothes shopping, katawanan sa kusina, at katabi sa pagtulog...ah, by the way, there's also that piling laundry of mine that needs to get done...but how to fight laziness, you tell me!

So far, friends I have spent time with after sembreak: KR (sobra tlg! salamat sa experience), Shuri, Jreppy (sawa n ko sa pagmumukha mo, pero malay ko ba, can't get enough of you, bwahahaha), Christian (lunch lang ito kaya bitin, ano baaa) Jordy (the gifted mama), Julie, Syrille, Ian, Krystelle (thank you sa oras at fun sa fountain), Andrew (sorry but I had to be cruel), Stephanie (thanks for being open and a great sport dun sa pranka namin ni Christelle)

Friends I desperately need to see: Tiffany, Therese, Bern, Des...and yah, Os- but I have to resched pa, haha! For those I'll be seeing on the 4th, I do hope I can come so that we can talk about what's up! I miss you all!

O, yan na...cge cge. :) God bless y'all.

Isolation day 1

I am bored. Now I kinda know what it means for those hens to just get cooped in the henhouse (or the green pyramidly thing like plastic contraption that those province sabongers set up for the roosties- what am I even talking about..waha).

Anyway, woke up feeling like I was morales after that fight with manny...only I am in fact not a Mexican and I don't even box! And my carpals, metcarpals, tasals, metatarsals feel like they were inflated or something last night...I can't move them so much as I could! I slept at ten plus naman ah...I didn't extend my time to play 02 jam...arrgghh...huhuhu...oh well.

No breakfast. No lunch. So that means I have to think of brunch later. No one to do that for me, coz everyone left for something. I have to think of other things to keep my mind off all that schoolwork I regret missing if I wanna remain sane here- like maybe sweep this pigsty which my brother calls a room (did that na while singing and dancing in Christian worship songs, yeah!), read ap book from cover to cover (on it since last night- NERD!!!!), watch youtube Korean vids- HeeChul!!! Aaaaa! (thnx Kr! T.T), do blogging, prepare breakfast (no, tmad ako), text someone (Christian, rep ka naman!), talk with Rep (did, but he left na for something too!huhuhu)!

Arrgghh, stress...stress...*closes eyes and massages earlobes* ...whoosahh...whoosahh...

No, I think may good reason naman why God let me stay home, first of them all which is of course, I got the virus and I shouldn't go spreading around. Second is that I have been putting off resting for weeks even after the prelims were over na (yan kasi matulog ka naman).

At marami naman akong nakuhang magandang lessons this season of unscheduled vacation, like for example I now know what it feels like to have German measles na, so if ever I get a patient like this, then I'd be more sympathetic!

And nakapag-bonding kmi ni Inay ko khapon (adik mga pintaserong baliw na chumika over walang kmatayang Goldilocks for lunch (fave nya ksi, so wt the heck), hahahaha). Suddenly I wonder how Julie is...hmm...I recall our chika over McDo snack...miss you how ever you are...

Pero kahit ngmamalaise ako, I checked my temp- 37.2. Kanina nahanap ko rin ung biogesic (after clearing the pigsty)...and I took it as soon as I did (safe naman on my empty stomach, so...)

Ayun na muna...12+ na pla. Lam niyo honestly I was about to feel sad kanina but I recalled na may nag-aalaga naman lagi sa kin (Jesus, I love you pare) so I didn't succumb to that anymore. So what if this nurse hasn't got anyone nursing her on the bedside?! I'm never alone and I know it! Yey me. Yey Lord. Date tyo mya.

Who wants a German embrace??? Hehehe

A mystery solved! Now I get why I’m feeling delirious, having red dots all over (not convex), and experiencing relapsing fever and body malaise- I got a mild case of German Measles!

But thankfully it’s a mild one as the doc said- but it gets me off-campus for not less than 7 days! Which really sucks big time, coz I’ll have to miss a lot of lessons. And my social time with my dearest friends! But then I care for those who are at risk of contracting the virus, so ok, stay home na nga…errgghh…

Anyway- a brief thanks to my classmates who expressed genuine concern (at least as I saw it)- Jords (grabe samahan ba ko- but didn’t mean to look like I’m flashing you, sorry), Kr, Syrille, Arianne, Katrina, Jonathan (lagot ka kay sir), Arianne (sorry anak), and Christian (have a bone to pick with you pa!).

For those who are sort of wondering what happened, eto kasi un. Humapdi ung mata ko due to (as I thought) hypersensitivity to some unknown allergen (naks! Chapter 18 na mga ppl!).

So punta Health Services with dear niece Jordi. Doc diagnosed a mild case of german measles, prescribed multivitamins and verlix…tapos dumating cla Mark. That’s when they found out. Huhu.

Then umakyat pa ko just to bid sir (and my classmates, in an ironic tone) goodbye.

Now I go blog, take medication by bedtime later, then read my next lessons…minus my social enjoyment (I got right here!!! Gemme outta here!!! *yamot yamot*).

Yun lang. Happy vacation tuloy ako…wuhuhu…wahaha…I dunno what to say.

Latent adolescent stage??? Meron ba nun?

Judging from the lethargy that I am in now( as I type this), I feel that I should have probably dropped my books for tomorrow and slept off what was left of my night. Anyway, it's another day for me- kahit prelims na (epal mga nagbbkasyon jan, nang-iinggit, malapit na rin kami)!

The sun's shining as handsomely as my smile today na talaga namang na-eenhance as the days go by, hehehe (hmm...Peach was never this conceited until...). It must have been because of my little getaway with Bern yesterday (about 4 hours as she counted, but still too short for the likes of us).

At! May isang pangit na nagseselos jan (hoy rep, fyi- pinagsawaan ka na namin ni Bern, so buzz off our relationship!- nyenyenyenyenye! Iwan si reppy!Xp)
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**No, rep- seriously it was an unplanned thing- just had a free day and I contacted the first person that got processed in my limbic system, which is obviously not you (cge, iyak ka na, wahaha), although I DID think about contacting you, but I thought that you wouldn't be able to come by on such short notice, so there...but you know I love you anyways at nag-uusap naman tayo all the time, so macontento ka na, my one and only ex-hubby!X* **
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Or maybe it's because of my new 'do' today ('bakla!' as Christian (epal tlg un, wahahaha) instantly commented when I came in at 730). Nah, you wouldn't know...basta, some transformation is happening to me right now, more like a metamorphosis, wahahaha (Jrep, Bern- adik, mas malala na today!!!).

My diagnosis is that- I fear that Peach is experiencing a latent adolescent stage. Unsure of going through such a phase that I have detested and resisted for far too long- but what the heck, maybe it's about time that I did- I won't be 19 forever, come on! Maybe you'll get me when you see how I do now.

My final line here is this- come to think of it, Mark must have been silly at first (I assumed that he was) for believing in me (and seeing in me what others never did) in the first place, but well! His words did not fall on deaf ears...thanks dear...^^

FYI- the counter reads this as my 97th independent entry for this blog. which makes me really proud (that long already? wahahaha)

OK, have to sign off here- Christian needs a file...hahahaha...family planning. Cool.

i'll make long kwento na lang the peachie way, hehehe

At the moment my watch ticks 5:36:15 pm (ahahaha adik) as I think about what to put up here. Hmm...

SURPRISES of the recent times:

Saturday- met Shane again after a very (as in) very long time of not seeing each other (due to my tasks na rin partly)...chitchat, then went over to Tif and Therese's place to visit...

Monday- practice over at my PE classmate's house...had to come up with a routine for swing test and teach it to my groupie right before the following day of PE test (aaaaaaa)...but we did well, especially my ahia jo, galing gumiling (as if naman may igigiling wahauahauaha, joke- bad tlg ako)

Tuesday- met our new CI, Miss Tan...made rounds at our new ward sa hospital. FIRST TIME experience ako ng CODE BLUE, meaning naghihingalo na- dun pa sa ward namin...some 63 year-old woman whom one of my team mates was supposed to handle, take vital signs of.

(visualize this: bigla n lng mgssound off ng announcement sa megaphone dun sa nurses' station, then stampede ang mga interns and docs who want to give a free hand- pati mga usyoso papasok pa...imagine our startled expressions as they all rushed in and crammed into room 319-C (nasa rm 317 lng kmi, at buti la gaano pasyente dun now, which according to my CI is a rarity))

ANG MALUPIT pa niyan, ung pasyente ko, katabi lang nung bed niya (come on, it's in the charity division, so wlang partition, same room lang cla):

While one of the interns was desperately trying to revive the dying patient, both feet at kneeling position on one side of the bed pa ka mo, pumping all the way (kulang n nga lang lumusot ung old woman dun sa kama- as in! hahaha) hinanap ko ung woman patient ko. No sign of her anywhere. Tapos umikot ako (literally), and then parang larong pong taya, ung babae dun sa tapat ng bed niya sinabi sa kin:

"Ay, hinahanap niyo ba po ung pasyente jan?"

"Opo, san po?"

"Ay, dun sa labas, tumakbo sa taranta."

I thanked the lady and went out to find her. I found her- short wavy black hair, thick-rimmed glasses and wearing pink pa, fine. She restlessly walked back and forth there in front of the nurse station, clutching her floral orange bag and fanning nonstop with a folded Abante tabloid (you get the pic). I introduced myself and let her sit two rooms away from her real room. This is what happened pala:

She was awake with her daughter there on her bed when all these people came in because of the code blue thang. No one needed to tell her- she immediately jumped down from her bed and rushed out- kumaripas ng takbo, naunahan pa niya ung anak niyang babae, si 'Cathy' (also wearing pink, san ka pa!?). I laughed with her para hindi na siya mataranta- at para makuhanan ko na rin ng normal niyang vital signs, kasi naman ano, ang taas ng readings niya due to that event! So nadelay kami ng lunch break because of me and my delayed task (and what am I supposed to do, anyway? she was just being human, and patients are always top priority).

Later namatay nga ung patient na nirerevive...sinaksakan ng mga hormones but still...she's really expired, as we term it properly. My patient's still jumpy then, yaw tuloy bumalik ng room dahil dun. kahit pa nung nilinisan na ng staff nurses ung lugar, ala, yaw pa rin niya...I wonder if we'll still meet next week..? siguro naman by then solved na yang takot niya sa patay (o namamatay, whatever's worse for her).

Ako sa totoo lng first time ko mkakakita so I was rather in subconscious shock (if ever there is such a thing) during the afternoon. How easily life passes...hmm...

Three unusual days

Yes. Finally. After days of waiting I finally had the time to sit in front of the computer and do a bit of my passion- writing in blog form. I want to begin with what’s up with Friday-

Another fun day with my friends. After computer class at 3 pm, we went up to the lab to do some tinkering with agar cultures.

Some silly encounter with Mark which made me really pahiya to him…made me feel kinda awkward and terrible at first, but then, remembering what he is to me, I decided to put a stop to it.

Next activity, overstay in med library for the sake of research (honestly I stayed for the heck of it lang- no hwork done, just pure fun and antayan of friends who are busy doing lots of research stuff).

And then go home na, walk my friends to Espana sna when suddenly Mark met up with a bunch of his Bio friends and had to go (epal nay un!).

Kr and I had a heart-to-heart while waiting for my ma to fetch me.

Jo had a date somewhere kasi so I had no choice but to wait! Hahaha! (Well although he did insist today na sna I called him daw, I preferred to do away without him, kakahiya na eh…hahaha. But that’s very sweet of him, honestly.)

Saturday. Talked with Qua in sj. Fun. Sleepy. Then went home with my cousins and bros. Played basket for an hour. Spent time on phone.

*In the am of Sunday I woke up at 4am, alarmed at not having a uniform to wear, until I realized that there was no classes pla…hahaha…the stress…huhuhu…

Sunday na. Missed eating with my fam. Thankfully we ate two meals together this day. Visited papa, all the four of us sibs.

Another first exciting moment- I did laundry under the endless pour of rain! Somewhat silly, but it was fun taking a shower while finishing up…hahaha.

I didn’t sleep...second time that ever happened. But I’ve never felt so happy…if that’s ever possible. It was a truth encounter with my aunt. About what’s been bothering me. And I praise the Lord for being soo merciful to me despite my unworthiness (we are all, after all, unworthy).

I was about to take at least 30 minutes of sleep when suddenly my cell beeped. My eyes had to open. That was it- wla na ‘tong tulugan! Snatching my phone from under my pillow, I read. Ay, Christian…with some dramatic quote about unrequited love. Big deal.

So instead of sleeping, I simply replied to tell him that I didn’t get sleep pa.

Attitude problem

I feel rather bad about disliking some classmates of mine. I know it's natual not to like some things and some people. Pero parang ang bad na I intentionally sonb off some people or refuse to offer help to them when I have bad vibes towards them. I also do that to some of my friends when I am not on good terms with them. Haay.

Why this thought?

Well just seconds ago I said goodbye on the phone to my least favoirte member of the class, with whom I just refuse to talk to unless necessary. See, I've tried befriending him since the opening of classes in the first year, and well, he put me down four times na in my head count. Which made me give up- iba na un ah!

I understand it when people do not need me around. Cguro isip niyo kulit ko no...hehe. Sigh.

Which brings me to that second commandment of Jesus. Di ba in the Old Testa, God gave the Israelites a guideline- the Ten Comms on how to lead a life that is pleasing to His eyes. In the New Testa, Jesus compressed it to two na lang: One, love God above all. Two, love your neighbor as you love yourself.

Easier said than done if you ask me. Kasi naman, pano kung epal talaga, di ba? Pano kung ubod xa ng ybang, talagang grr evil!!! Well at least in my context of evil...bsta.

Ung second commandment panama tlg yan for that kind of mentality. I mean just because that person refuses my friendship doesn't mean I should treat him as badly too. I need to be constantly reminded of how I should lead my life well, the hard head...grr...mahirap, but if I love Jesus tlg (and I DO love him) I wouldn't question this one.

So after that eye-opening call, I now wish to resolve my attitude towards this guy. I know he is mean, lakas mang-okray, but so what! As long as I don't treat him the same, well, no prob with me! So I'll be civil, respect him as much as I would like others to respect me if ever I'd be in their positions. Come on, sino naman tyo para magmalinis? Biblically speaking,

"For all have sinned, and fall short of the glory of God..."

Peace to you all in Jesus' name. Amen.

Peach loosens up

Yesterday was totally unforgettable. I took off with three of my friends to SM Mall of Asia. Bern stayed with us a bit, but had to go away after lunch at Achi Jackee (but not before a shower of kisses here and there, hahaha) for her dentist appointment (aww…call me, dearie).

Bequa was supposed to come along, had Jrep not forgotten to inform her of the time and place (duh, rep! of course you had to inform her of that! bad ka! Huhuhu…)

Roll call: Me (of course), Jonathan, Jonreph, and a KR (blockmate and new friend)

So! We were supposed to go to Mega, but later changed upon rethinking the distance prob.
KR was feeling sickly sentimental upon her memory of first seeing and personally meeting her fantasy celeb singer guy, Jae Jong, there in that mall.

We had no real plan for the day, no purpose for coming in there but to spend time indefinitely. I felt soo happy upon seeing Jonreph again (I missed him so much!)- and this time with two of my new friends from UST:

Jo…well, he’s a Judenite, so no need to introduce. I’m extremely glad he came along with me despite the short notice. I didn’t exactly tell him or showed him my joy of his company, but I’m sure he knows, hehehe. Thanks, Ahia.

KR. New friend. She’s a cool happy gal who has a lot of love for Korean culture and her ‘husband’’ Jae Jong, one of the five boys forming the phenomenal singing band, Dong Bang Shin Ki. She’s bubbly, talkative, and really fun to be with. She’ll wear you out without effort! :P I’m very happy that she and my friends clicked just fine on the first meet.

So! What did we do?

Ikot, walk (Jonathan’s 1st time eh, mine’s 2nd).
Looked out to the sea (it’s beautiful!).
Than eat corn sa baso ang girls.^^
Chika kami.
Arcade- Air hockey, drum, tambourine, racing, dance dance (ung may sensors only)
Picture to sawa using the phone cam? Hehehehe.

When we got tired and it was almost dark (around 5:30 kmi ngstop), we sat in Starbucks and waited for Jonreph’s car. Good way to end the day...but as I exclaimed to them as we went off, I'll definitely never forget this day, hahahaha!

Btw- Jrep! Exams na, right? God bless you there.

Adventures of the Wild (Part 2)

Daylight. My eyes' worst enemy. Woke up on the upper deck of my bed, head spinning with my ma hitting me with a fan just to get me to rise. Which I did, coz I had to iron my uniform pa. Awww. Lazy mode...

So! I jumped down from the arms of slumber and began to iron. I rarely use the iron there so un e di hindi ko alam...hindo ko tinesting ung init, pagplantsa kong ganun sa left sleeve ng CHN uniform ko...nalusaw ung threads at nabutas! Aaaaaaaaaaaaa! *Aling isiiiiing!!!!* XO

Lesson for the day: Strike while the iron while it's hot. But check the heat, damit! (no pun intended wahahahaha)

So hinatid na ko ni Ma, hayun, tapos on the way to the Med bldg sumagi na naman sa isip ko si Mark, kung nandun na naman sa taas, super aga as ever, then bigla na lang, as if reading my thoughts, may pangit na tumawag ng aking napakagandang ngalan from behind pagpasok ko ng bldg. I didn't even need to see (though I was completely caught off-guard: ayan na, speaking of the devil, si Mark (hehehe).

Tpos ngpsama ako sa kanya kumain ng almusal sa BK, then akyat na kami.

...then breaktime. Naglaro kami dun sa skills lab habang ala ung next prof.Of course as usual bad si Mark. May hospital bed kasi dun for demo purposes only. Eh napagtripan namin. Humiga ako dun sa bed at nagkumot pa for trips. Tpos bigla na lang si Mark binalutan ako ng kumot up to the head!

At aba, naki-ride ang grupo sa pag-mourn sa akin a la postmortem!!! Kr umarte pang evil anakers ko, hahaha, 'patay' na ko tawa pa ng tawa, hahaha! Tpos biglang dumating ung prof, so biglang bangon and fix the linens (tuck it, fold it, flap it, stuff it, don't shake it! hahahaha).

I got 86 sa CHN exam, which I crammed only as in sa skul ko lang inaral with the group. I was feeling happy and hopeful that I got the highest when suddenly inanaounce in Lorenz na naka-88 (WHAT!!!) si Christian! Mark! I cannot accept it! Shave those points! Wahahaha! :P

Lunchtime. Mark and I had to go do our computer article search somewhere so humiwalay kami from the group. Dapat ang balak di na kami eat ni Christian kaso sige, daan kami Jolibee with a lot of time to spare- and ate a light meal.

Na-sad ako sa totoo lang when it was 1pm na, meaning computer discussion na. Awww...tpos bigla after prayer pinaalis rin kami!!! (I think bad mood si sir...I wonder...) but anyway we're free so yay! Steal chance to practice our practical exam sa PE na social dance. I have to say I am very very impressed and thankful for the efforts of Mark and Kr sa pagtuturo sa min ng sayaw for this, coz frankly, it got better with the mixing and new concepts (I particularly like the elvis-inspired move, hehehe).

And then babay uli. Now I'm here sa Malabon, may training ako 2m so I have to do time of shut-eye...my lover, sleep, awaits me (hehehe)...love y'all who read this...:)

Adventures of the Wild (Part 1)

June 27, 2006- I have been brimming with all my excitement like a lovelorn Juliet down the alley of a seemingly usual day since yesterday, just dying to write this entry because it's soo worth remembering.

So! I begin with the morning when the FX broke down (it happens) on the way to UST. My father came waaay later to try and fix it, much to our relief. But I was running late, so I braced myself for my lateness.

Fortunately, the sun was shining more brightly as usual on my side of the field, and the profs were not around to teach us for the whole morning (yey!). So sige. Eh nagpapasama si Jo sa sj to get his chimes (and etc). so ok naman un sa kin. Now at the time nandun rin mga potential salimpusas- Christian, Kr, and Syrille (moi kblockers), so with a bit o coaxing (esp with Mark) napasama na rin namin sila, hehehe. I was trying to hide my excitement over this rare and untimely adventure with them, but of course when this girl's happy it shows talaga, so what the heck...

E di yan, jeep kami to Arlegui then go to sj, pickup chimes. Then dahil may usapan pla si Leanne and Jonathan, e di nagkita sila sa loob. She was hanging around with Steve and Miss Tan when we arrived. Hindi na kami tumagal dun, Nagstop sa Quickee to wait sana for Ian, kaso d pla siya sama so tuloy kaming SM as agreed.

Ngayon e di anim kami, punta ng SM Mla, libot konti, then eat sa Wendy's. Si Jo bond (covalent or ionic? XP) with Leanne, si Kr at Syrille ang saya, ganda ng chemistry at same ang wavelength so magsama ang mga bruha, hahaha...so the unfortuante me had to do a full session with Mark na nilalaswa na naman ako (wahahaha patay na bulgar ka na!).XP

And then after a last stopover (cr), go na ulit with an hour to spare. Kasi naman ano, may Micropara at English pa. But then...fine...*kunot noo* SS:(

Pauwi nagtaxi kami- tabi sila ni Jo at Mark sa harap, ang cuute tlg, hahahaha! On the way puro jokers at tawanan na naman, hehehe. I love this bunch:

Si Jo siyempre from sj to UST anjan, so I need not describe it.

Si Kr recently lang nameet, but so far the past few weeks have been nothing but laugh trips with her around me.

Si Leanne sj friend yan, one of my first true friends there na super bait at super sweet tlg (naks!).

At si Christian kahit na sa totoo lang harassment tlg ang inaabot ko jan (huhuhu...163), well...of course he's very very dear to me (halata bang bumawi lang??? wahaha).:P

...now I'm thinking that there might just come a time when this new girl in the bunch Syrille will eventually become one of us, coz apparently, she's blending well with the group! :) And why not, she's nice...

Tapos yan na babay hapi trip na...well si Mark nagextention ng stay at nagdayalogo kami somewhere private and dark (ngek) before I had to let him go sa Espana gate.

Yun lang. Then Wild goes back to the real world of exam rechecks and quizzes on worms, hahaha...

Thank you's of the day...

Thank you...

Jonathan- ahia, I know lagi na lang tyo nag-aaway na parang aso't pusa, puro hirit to the max and as you say, lagi mo nga ako natatalo, at dinagdag mo pa kanina na nakakawalang-gana ang pagmumukha ko sa food! :P But you know well that my concern is yours as yours is mine. We do not agree with the sanity of the decisions we make, but then we stand by each other...you stand by me. Thank you. :)

Kr- Your Korean madness has got me wanting more...congrats pala sa iyong monumental achievement! You make me feel proud. But though you're an excellent fic author, I prefer to praise you more for the friendship that you give so generously kahit you deny doing so! Thanks!:)

Yanni- I know pinapagalitan tyo ni Mark sa ating obsession, but we have our time naman. Salamat sa oras this afternoon...honestly you're doing really great (better than me, I'd say) in 02 jammin! Keep it up! :)

Jordi- I know I've been really mean to you that you can't resist hanging to Jo whenever I tease you. But of course you know as I know that I like you a lot (not like you like you, you know what I mean, hahahaha). Thank you so much for making me happy. But I give you no thanks for making a tickle-me-elmo while I was playing the cadaver! lol

Daryll- my younger anak, thanks for the brief talking...hope you don't let that Comp result bring you own, you're better than that. :) Take care...

Julie- I laughed at your walk today. Thank you for cheering me up without even knowing, hahaha! Thanks for the hugs that you have generously given me (I needed it a lot).

At meron pa ba...ay, oo! Ano na na ba name nun...joke!

Christian- You've been a really baad guy to me...pati ba naman sa YM??? hahahaha! Anyway I thank you heartfully for giving me so much love kahit na minsan grr you still hit too strongly (masakit tlg!). Thank you for being there to understand my troubles and trips (esp. today, really appreciate your efforts in making me happy and blissfully distracted from problems' reality). Thanks for loving me as I am, kahit na oo nga user ka!!! :P At mahangin (laki ulo!!!). And as you say it often, 'you can call me anytime...' ^^

Lose it now (Or pay the price)

I just had another one of those special days with my UST friends...I have to give it to God...he's soo smart at coming up with things to keep me from crying. Or feeling depressed in my state. Hahaha.

Anyway, it's been done, hehehe.

What I want to discuss here is the problem of greed when it eats through our hearts. My heart, for one, finds it hard sometimes to resist coveting things that are not meant for me. Yes, and I believe only a few would know of it...

I recall my dear aunt's words to me, "Do not nurse unnecessary feelings." I think it is so with my untimely wants at this season. I believe in God's time, that the things meant for us to have will be given to us.

Honestly I am recently struggling with a big bad want, a whim which I hope to take care of as soon as possible. Not that I will satisfy it by getting that one thing I want the most in my heart right now. I sincerely believe that it is not for me to decide to possess such a beautiful thing, that God has other plans for me. Which is why I am struggling...with this profound knowledge that I should lose this fight for that want...for the sake of everyone around me and me as well. My heart tells me to grab it and go, but my mind shouts valid reasoning.

Man's foresight covers a mere short range of what is to be...

I guess that's it...I do have to pray before taking the fall...

"I am not losing this war because I am afraid of the challenge. I am losing it for the purpose of necessity, which I believe shows more of what bravery I have...enough to face the fear of losing something I am not supposed to have. "

Happy and sleepy sunday

1:57 am on my cel time. Darn! I was supposed to greet Christian a happy birthday during midnight...grr...oh, well...I still texted him, whatever...then snore back to my dream...zzzz...I)

7:59 am on the cel screen- I woke up side-lying (oh, so that's how I sleep...) on the left part of my bed this morning, feeling like I just had 6 full cups of red wine. The house was silent of course, with my bros out for the weekend in their basketball tourney. I cleaned up what looked like remnants of the daliy tornado outside my territory, ate breakfast (1.5 slice of bacon cheezeburger pizza) and sat in front of the computer to start my day fine.

...ok, sure there's tons of work to finish (don't let me start), 3 (or 4) long quizzes to make up for monday (2 hours extention of the regular hours, san ka pa), but I do need a loosening up after two long weeks of no staying home, with 2 good Sundays leaving me more exhausted and drained, hahaha.

You know, I can almost hear my (OC-OC) blockmates freaking out with that thought of mine...I know it's a losing battle but Peach- the somewhat rebellious, sluggish girl (you got me) who seems to do full force only when it's cramming time, wahaha (no, wait- don't hit me yet- read on...)

Since I was alone I took advantage of my privacy and listened to my latest cd, checked my email, read 3 blogs, browsed related friendster accounts, later YM- dialogue with Shuri, a fun chat with Riema, Robin, and Tif...then later, i concluded my online time with a stolen (stolen, kasi takot ako bka magicng c ma nd mahuli ako nang d oras) game series of O2 jammin' with Tif in which she defeated me in one round, hahaha- nice one, keep level-upping!!!

Then Ma woke up with a bad head just as I decided to start hitting the books (OK, fine- Holy Spirit intervention's the only way to my hard head?!! Wahahaha). She made me do some tasks, one of which was urging her to eat (which is really tough especially with a picky appetite). Then I set objectives, about 6 of them I think- and started to study whatever I can. But not long after that I began to feel sleepy (not again), so I decided to stand up and cook PC (not personal computer, pancit canton^^) for my choice of lunch.

And study I did. In the middle of that I transfered a few notes to my room and there I slept a bit (the flesh is weak..?), about a good hour, and then I woke up with a new fill of energy, which motivated me to go go go! I took an enormous bite out of my hard cookie of work for an hour.

In the middle of my concentration, my heart leapt with joy at the sight of my Aunt coming into the room- she just arrived from her pastor works. She invited me outside my territory to eat some coconut, which is one of my weaknesses, hehehe. I protested, but my feet quickly carried me to the kitchen (and the outside world).

Later I happened to remember my online assignment in NSTP (due at 11:59 pm!), which led me here. And thankfully I checked my email too, coz I received the news that we only have 3-4 scheduled quizzes for Monday, not the previously announced 5-6 (makeups included, of course).

OK! While my brothers and my Ma are speaking ill of blogging and my blogging habits at the moment (oh, fantastic), let me tell you that I have to leave shortly after this to eat my first real meal for the evening (my father cooked it in Caloocan), and as Ma had told me earlier this eve, sleep early so that I'd be ready to leave tomorrow at 4 am sharp.

So! I'm going? Tag me whenever...and I hope you adore my latest skin as much as I do, hahaha!

my first wheel...(intradermal injection)

man, that looks great...

perfect.:)

another round, Jo?:P

My new ahia is a cool guy

Ahia Jonathan is sooo cool...grabe, as in. And who would have thought na from some old school acquaintance eh magiging close kami...hmm...still a mystery on how our paths crossed. Dati kasi parang wla lang, d tlg ngkakalapit ang landas namin. Now he's even my groupmate for all the activities. Yah, it's official- we'll be spending a good three years together in the same classes, same dilemmas, and same Friday home jeep trips (as ordered by my mammita who still refuses to let me go alone, hahahaha). It's not apparent, but he's sweet (hala bulgar na to, bka mgalit xa) but in a differently gud (and platonic) way.

He's my companion. He insists on walking me after class. He won't go home until he's sure that I am really home...kya nga pag gumagala pa ko around sj he's still there, as in, ang kulit. Sometimes I argue with him about it (among all those things that we debate about in the afternoons). I just think he's supposed to be home instead of staying to check that I'm ok and good in mama's eyes (which btw I independently maintain as promised, thanks).

He eats with me and doesn't make me feel like I have to be some poised lady or what. And he doesn't mind me eating whatevers- he's a food adventurer, so unlike me. I like the comfort that I get in being with him most of my school days, especially when I'm feeling bad, or missing my special crushie for some few hours. Sa aral, motto niya lagi, 'no pressure.' Sa pag-uusap namin, 'enlightening.' Sa itsura ko after a long day, 'mukha kang stressed.' Hahahaha!

He's got this trademark of looking out for me. May ilang beses na rin niya kong nasasabihan like, 'change your clothes.' after pe or dance practices. Or pag di pa ko eat, he'll accompany me to the waffle stall. And during those times when I passively tell him my desire to join whatever clubs or teams, etc., I discovered later on na tine-takedown niya pla ung mga skeds for audition and requirements sa kanyang cell, then later remind me of them! When I go overboard on making a fool of myself in public, he'd always tell me off in a very gentle manner so I'd stop my mischief, even if that means disobeying my desire to mess around, hehehe. He's also looking out for my clothes, my uniform- almost wanted to drag me along Dapitan to Aling Ising's just to get them. And whenever we 'd need some items for class (syringes, needles, etc.), he's offer to buy them for me and I'll of course pay them later na lang.

Minsan bad rin siya. There was one time we went to Chowking after pe out of my halohalo whim (kahit na sinisipon ako, wahu), and ngkataon dumaan si crushie ko from section 5, bsta. And when I pointed him out for him to see, aba, bad reaction! Pangit daw choice ko (pati ba naman ikaw, magsama kayo ni Christian). Wehehehe.

He's a respectable man in my opinion. He's got a lot of logic between his ears, independent nga eh. Bait, of course. And now, he's my real friend. :) I just hope he stays, despite his claims na he might just be using me for the meantime (what if daw). Binatukan ko nga, sabi ko tuloy na lossnaman niya un kung pumalag siya sa samahan namin, coz makakaaway niya si dear Mark, si anak kong Yani, and family, yehey! hehehe.

Si Anni...kinikilig na naman

Epal at yari na naman ang sistema ng pagdaloy ng dugo ko...isipin nyo nmn kung kyo rin ang nsa klagyan ko mrahil ganun din kyo.

Ay, kasi eto ung kwnto- ung crush k ngkta n nmn kmi, eh umeepal n nmn kht na cnbi k n na behave dpt xa, hahahaha...tpos un, eh ako naman ay mababaw lang na nilalang, kya un, pagkaalis ng bruho, ngtttlon ako, hahaha!

Hmmm...pero sbi nga ng mga friends k, mga pare at mare, fans at hindi (as if!), bad taste daw ako s mga lalaki, ay nko. Eh paki ba nila, eh sa mta ko mainit cla, so ako naman si tingin, admire, at tingin pa uli hahahaha!

Ksi naman s totoo lang hindi ako ung tipong taong ngbbgy ng msyadong hlaga sa mga crushes k...isipin nyo n lng, kht ako nttwa pg naiicp ko na kung halimbawa lng nmn n lht ng nging crush k ay pinangarap ko, eh naka, patay tayo riyan...dami k n bf. D n rn ako sali sa samahang NBSB (no bf since birth)! :P

Ang crush hindi equals love sa kin. Bsta. Sa katunayan tinatawanan ko lang sa ngayon ang posibilidad na magkasyota dahil alam kong hindi ito naaayon sa aking prinsipyo at prioridad. Sa kasalukuyan lang ako sigurado. Malay natin bukas ung crush ko pla jowa k n (ano?!!) hahahah! Exampol lang mga ppl. Bsta ang akin eh ung hindi sumasalungat sa batas ng Diyos.

Sa pag-ibig: So with an answer as indefinite as 'Why my dear Mark is soo mataray', "What is love?" (I'm referring exculsively to the 'special someone', take note)

I have formulated a compressed answer for this. To me, my special someone is a very dear friend of mine who happens to be a guy, whom I trust and care about, whom I know needs me as I need him, who complements me as I complement him, a Christian who walks closely with God and lives only for Jesus...and surely wants me in his life for good (dapat!). O d b...

OK! My qualifications are set. But thankfully (and maybe to some of you, sadly) God's time for my turn isn't set- yet? Hehehe. And I'm cool with that. Sure, it's a bit pressuring for me to control my hormones (and myself!) from going out there and picking one for the sheer pleasure of it. But the gift of this time of single blessedness is simply a wise way to mature even more not only physically, emotionally, and mentally, but also- and most especially- in the aspect of faith in our Master.

I am certain that only a few would truly comprehend this dynamic concept, and I am soo sure that fewer than that would even like to try it for themselves. But I assure you that I have no regrets handling the situation with these principles in mind. :)

So much for love. Time to post!

First Day High!

Oy, byaan nyo, d nmn ako kakanta nung rexona song ng Kamikaze, hahaha...though that would be fun, wahooo!

June 13- siyempers sa totoo lang ung mga freshies naiisahan lang nito, ang real first day ksi is 14 pero for sophies of course different ang kaso. orientation daw, cge...tpos un pla sariling commute papunta sa venue, sa Sta. Mesa pa no, grr! Buti n lng at kasama ko si Jonathan, streetwise at adventurous so we got there ok- bilad sa araw pero ok, hehehe.

Orientation- lasted from 1030-100. Boring coz it's all ranting, but the topics presented to us were very...interesting. We were given a taste of what we're about to do real soon. One of them happens in the maternity ward (PUSHHHHH!!!!!!!!! But not before- 'insert two fingers measurement') xp. The other means injecting meself...to lern how to vaccinate others (feel the pain first so you'll be merciful daw on your victims- ah, i mean- patients, hahaha!).

Rainy interlude- bumuhos ang ulan. (To the unprepared others- Yei, i can use my red umbrella, nyehehehehe- joke!)xp Baaad Peachie! Ma was away so ptay syempre id have to wait, bt then with Ma's consent, pumayag xa go back me sa Mendiola area bsta may ksma mgjeep- buti ok lang k Jonathan, bless him...so un ngjeep kmi sa buhos ng ulan, then bond n chat dun sa kfc over lunch. Ngantay n rn kmi ng 300 dsmissal (firs day d b?xp) at mdyo ngliwaliw sa skul at churchyrd b4 xa uwi. Super thnx to him at d ako ngbulok dun sa venue! :)

Cousin bonding- Pinaalam k muna cna shane alain at david (my cousins^^) at ngbond kmi s kfc wyl w8ng for their sundo to come by. umulan n nman ng pgkalakas2, so buti anjan n c ma at sinundo pa kmi. :) shortly dumating rn erpat nla, then with a bit sadness hinatid k cla to the car kht ngshower n ko s ulan (pinayungan k eh), hahaha!

Uwi, tulog. Tulog. ZZZZZZZ.

Tagged! Tagged! Tagged! >:(

OK, peach has been tagged for reasons na di ko naman nalaman hanggang nabasa ko rin ung entry ni Madame Schizoesque! Well, since I am not at all busy here, I might as well follow the instructions...and later tag someone too, bwahahahahaha- (honestly this is a fun way to uncover some interesting info in you guys...)

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Instructions:
1. The tagged victim (apparently, me) has to come up with 8 different descriptions of their perfect lover.
2. He/she needs to mention the sex/gender of their perfect lover.
3. He/she must tag 8 more people to join this game and leave a comment on their comments saying they've been tagged.
4. If tagged a second time, there's no need to post again.

(Naku, I don't wish to be idealistic, but my these, as JR and I had discussed not long ago, serve as guidelines-)

Gender: Male! (No in-betweens!)
1st: (Cannot be compromised) He is a certified Christian, a devoted bondservant of Christ.
2nd: (Cannot be compromised) He belongs to my inner circle of trustees.
3rd: (Cannot be compromised) Matalino! (Meaning, hindi siya engot- esp. with grammar, naku!)
4th: He never fails to make me laugh, kalogers- may amusing measure of 'kulit.'
5th: He is a true friend who goes the distance to spend time with me.
6th: He loves to eat (para same kami) and is a food adventurer (para maiba).
7th: He is an adventurer at heart (mahilig sa outdoors and new places).
8th: He can cook, do the laundry (whether manual or not), sweep and mop the floor as well as I can, and wash dishes (aka marunong sa buhay).
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Man! Hersch, napaisip ako! But oh well, some of these can still change (but not the first 3).
FYI: (Just a tidbit-) I'm not at all worried about meeting my 'perfect lover,' coz believe me or not, I tell you now that the person I'm going out with next is my husband, in God's grace.:)

OK, meanwhile, I'm tagging next! :P