First, there's the list of decisions I had made: there's the med thing, the 3/30 thing, the indefinite leave thing... so much is happening at this time that I find it hard to take in everything all at once. And then there are the goodbyes all around me. Suddenly, people are walking out of my life at one period. Some are just going for a vacation. Others are simply moving up and about to find their niche in society. Both are reasonable, of course, but as I have especially learned these past few weeks, no amount of rationalizing can ever truly obliterate the pain of detachment, right? It's atypical of me to do so, but I have altogether stopped formulating reasons for this growing feeling of loneliness, which is a virus at its most thriving stage this week.
Ah! The goodbyes...I never grow out of them.
But well, the recent miracle is that I have grown tired of thinking. Haha! The logician experiences a temporary shut down... and perhaps for the meantime, the mental vacation is good.
1:25am, says the computer clock. I have my big group class first thing in the morning and I'm still awake here, downloading some fresh music files. And to think I have a lot of preparation to take care of tomorrow. Super crazy. Thankfully I was bitten by the writer's bug in this downloading lull. Perfect timing.
So now what can I say? Hmm...
Of course... life is not so easy these days... I will always have my set of woes, especially since typically, change is not easily accepted by people, and unfortunately, change is constant, too! Major changes are hard to take in. But on the lighter side, I have my fun or strange encounters to balance my elements... sometimes I feel that the cosmic powers conspire to sprinkle my days with these comical quirks...
Old Connections-
I felt super glad to see one of my student friends- my sister friend- Sophie, back in school. I was so happy that I was literally jumping upon seeing her. She is one of the femmes whom I feel comfortable with. A bonus point is that, without her noticing anything, I mentally paid attention to her speaking as we greeted each other during her return...and it felt good to hear how her speaking has improved, especially with some particular words that I had pointed out to her (strictly!) when she was still part of my small group class. More than that, I am expecting to have more girl-bonding with her and some new girls real soon.^^
I have also received an unexpected package from Dong Hyeon, which prompted me to sigh and ask... What is up with all the chocolate? This is because, as my closest friends know, I typically don't eat snacks that are given to me, unless they are opened right then and there. Truthfully, I don't like chocolates and snacks so much, especially these days. Having received a lot of it last Happy Tuesday, I currently have more than enough fill of glucose and polyphenols.
Nevertheless, I promptly sent a very warm message of thanks for the thoughtful present... and I am slowly consuming them... yummy. I prefer chocolates with rice crispies.^^
Also, four days ago I had the privilege to communicate with one of my favorite students of last year, old Daniel. He is still crazy, hairstyle is crazier, and he remains to be one of my faithful friends to this day.
And what a surprise- good ol' Tony came back from the dead, whoahohoho. He periodically resurfaces from his sea of typical student obligations to say hi to me.
Eddy is Cute-
Oh! Today I fall for the cuteness of Eddy in Pororo (the fox)... suuuuper cute! He has a pair of cute ears which twitch with his expressions. And his eyes...when he smiles, they are just a pair of slits. Normally, they are just a pair of dots. Ah, cute cute cute. I had quickly downloaded a picture of him earlier today. I am planning to watch more of the series to pass time, especially nowadays that I have my lazy hours in the early afternoons. I don't mind sounding like an overgrown kid, coz what the heck, he's cute...come on, no argument about that...
9 vs 1? Bring it on!-
My big group class made me realize all the more how I dislike being on the spotlight! Lecturing in front of people is not really my cup of tea (or my can of coke, haha), but of course as part of my development, I have learned to accept the situation as part of personal improvement. Oh, but how I hate being in front... eeerrgghh...I want to remain in my room if I can choose to! (But of course if I did, there'd be murder, haha!)
I have also received an unexpected package from Dong Hyeon, which prompted me to sigh and ask... What is up with all the chocolate? This is because, as my closest friends know, I typically don't eat snacks that are given to me, unless they are opened right then and there. Truthfully, I don't like chocolates and snacks so much, especially these days. Having received a lot of it last Happy Tuesday, I currently have more than enough fill of glucose and polyphenols.
Nevertheless, I promptly sent a very warm message of thanks for the thoughtful present... and I am slowly consuming them... yummy. I prefer chocolates with rice crispies.^^
Also, four days ago I had the privilege to communicate with one of my favorite students of last year, old Daniel. He is still crazy, hairstyle is crazier, and he remains to be one of my faithful friends to this day.
And what a surprise- good ol' Tony came back from the dead, whoahohoho. He periodically resurfaces from his sea of typical student obligations to say hi to me.
Eddy is Cute-
Oh! Today I fall for the cuteness of Eddy in Pororo (the fox)... suuuuper cute! He has a pair of cute ears which twitch with his expressions. And his eyes...when he smiles, they are just a pair of slits. Normally, they are just a pair of dots. Ah, cute cute cute. I had quickly downloaded a picture of him earlier today. I am planning to watch more of the series to pass time, especially nowadays that I have my lazy hours in the early afternoons. I don't mind sounding like an overgrown kid, coz what the heck, he's cute...come on, no argument about that...
9 vs 1? Bring it on!-
My big group class made me realize all the more how I dislike being on the spotlight! Lecturing in front of people is not really my cup of tea (or my can of coke, haha), but of course as part of my development, I have learned to accept the situation as part of personal improvement. Oh, but how I hate being in front... eeerrgghh...I want to remain in my room if I can choose to! (But of course if I did, there'd be murder, haha!)
Even then, I must say that being able to handle big group classes has its perks. My morning classes get rowdy at times because of the super shows they put up. I get to meet more people and establish social connections with them. Also, I get more chances to practice speaking in front of other people (as if I'm not having a load of that, heh). Unfortunately/fortunately I have to leave the teaching stint shortly because of my personal business. But overall, what a lovely experience...^^
The Man Without the Shirt-
It started one night while I was having dinner with some friends. In particular, Yeong Ki started asking me about my ideal male celebrity. We compared pictures for a while, and when I asked about Won Bin, he immediately obliged and showed me some interesting pictures of him. At one point, I had to look away from his phone at once because he showed me a...hmm... daring picture of this guy. At that time, without my knowledge, he had instantly sent me four pictures in kakao. Imagine my surprise upon seeing the pictures later that night... *self-conscious laughter* yaaaaaa what the..! (at first it was more of shocking, then later it was more of awesome hahahaha) In a nutshell... I totally agree with his appeal. Wow. And just two days ago, I read an article claiming that the he is currently the sexiest Korean, which is... *smiles* not at all surprising...go Won Bin...=^^=
Enough of that. I just find it truly unusual to...umm... giggle because of some raw masculine appeal. Ha!
I can ponder on more stories worth remembering, but for now, optimism counts... and so I have to sleep! That's it.^^
Enough of that. I just find it truly unusual to...umm... giggle because of some raw masculine appeal. Ha!
I can ponder on more stories worth remembering, but for now, optimism counts... and so I have to sleep! That's it.^^
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God bless you
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