Always Yours

Why can't it be?
Why can't it be the two of us?
Why can't we be...

For now I sit and ask and wonder... I wish I understood why... Oh Lord... why lead me to this path... I hate not understanding situations. I hate making hurtful decisions... Can I really trust you to shatter this pain?

That's a rhetorical questions... However I think, however I ask, struggle, go over every detail of certain matters, I believe I will always go back to You and Your perfect will that shall stand undefeated. I will always go back to You, my Lord who has never disappointed me. Not that it's Your priority... after all, Your glory is always first and You deserve it all.You deserve my whole life, my mind, my decisions...all for You. I came from you, and I have always been meant to be Yours.

Yes, I will always return to the Truth. You are all I truly have, Lord... I can only live by You.

White Flag

Composed on Jan.6... I realize that God can work mightily in those who choose to surrender... that is why the place of power is in the place of prayer... in prayer, we surrender...in prayer, we lay down our arms for God to work in us.

At the break of dawn, 

At the rising on the sun,

On Your holy ground,

I lay myself down.

Tired of running,

Tired of fighting,

Tired of always saying no,

Tired of crying, 

Tired of hating,

Tired of knowing I don't know

There is no use

Trying not to lose

When this battle is God's 

And you got to lose it all to God

Got to hand it all to You

Yeah I got to give it all to You

Lord here's my best

I'm saying yes
I surrender to You
I surrender to You
Yielding now
Kneeling down
Here's my will under Yours
Here's my heart under Yours
I surrender
I surrender

Nothing Else Matters

(Inspired by a Psalms verse...
Truly, He is the only one we can truly believe in!)

My worries turn like leaves,
Carried by the wind of your grace.
My wounds fade out to nothing
With the healing of your embrace.

For great is Your love,
Higher than the heavens.
Your faithfulness reaches to the skies.

Stir me with Your unfailing love.
Be exalted forever, mighty God!
My eyes are set on You as the world fades away,
And nothing else matters.

My fears crumble like ashes,
Carried by the wind of Your grace.
My pain is changed to joy
With the healing of Your embrace.

For great is Your love,
Higher than the heavens.
Your faithfulness reaches to the skies.

Set me free with Your saving love.
I thank You forever, mighty God!
My heart is set on You as the world fades away,
And nothing else matters.

And nothing else matters but You, and You, my Lord...

NO (When God says no)

(Composed as I typed. Crazy... but...)

I guessed I wanted to love you and make you mine. But then now, I realize...it's not my choice because it's not God's will. Hm.

Don't you dare go that way again,
It's gonna be the same pain if you begin.
Do you not remember the times of old,
You were left disappointed and so cold?
Over time you were able to get back on your feet,
Understand- that's enough, and this is it!

Remember that I snatched you with a price to pay,
Even if it cost me dearly just to make THE way.
All I did for you because I'm true!
Love is here, and you know- I love you!
Look at me now and forget about him.
You'll receive the best- more than your dream!
Love is more than just your being happy.
Everything you need, you'll find in me,
All the love and freedom you've yet conceived.
Reach out and dare to risk, believe!
Nothing is impossible, you just wait and see!

Two Poems

Been a poet since I was twelve... got the hype after the English teacher told us to write a haiku as part of written exercise.

Enjoy...

1.Musings~

You are not mine, I am not yours. 

I am perhaps yearning for something close to the real thing. 

What is it? Some call it love. 

And sometimes I'm thinking it's you... 

That true love has been standing in front of me for a while. 

Am I in love? I've asked myself. 

Do you love me? How do you feel?

Yet I cannot bear to ask you for real.

For when I think of it more, I realize that I cannot pay the price.

I cannot commit to someone who doesn't seem to understand the gravity of long-term relationships. 

So come, let's leave it in a drawer and forget it. 

Hide the proposal under lock and key. 

Yes, we are single.

Yes, we are free. 

No, I won't ever love you. 

2.The Winning Song

It's a glorious day of celebration

A festivity of friendships and fiery passion

My eyes saw the smiles, my ears heard the laughter

Though a song in my mind sounded so much beter

How time slow-danced as I met your gaze

Embracing my senses through the crowded haze

While everyone else melted away in applause

I saw only you in that moment's pause

Nothing mattered as you held me firmly

Nothing else but your smile, and you and me

Even my heart can never go wrong

Resounding your secret winning song

Don't mind the world as we sway to the sound

Don't mind the commotion of everyone around

All I know is I hear the song

As it tells me clearly we both belong

To the fortunate few who can really hear

To such blessed hearts wthout much fear

Go on and take your hero's stand

Go ahead and feel it, take her hand

All you know is you hear the song

And it tells you clearly you both belong

Not Why But When

Someday, you will realize why this is happening- including all the disgusting hair growth, unusual complexion, and uneven distribution of body mass. Oh, and the persecution, rejection, and ostracism. Though your sorrow may last for a night, you'll see...joy comes in the morning. You know in your heart that I am with you always and I love you.

~ God, to the contemplative caterpillar

Why 10,000 Reasons captured my interest

Recently I was able to listen to one of the songs at the Christian billboard, entitled, "10,000 Reasons" by Matt Redman. From the start of the song I was spellbound. I literally had to put down my book to pay more attention to it. It really stopped the time for me. That means it's a good song...

So what makes it special? The rhythm is not so new- just guitar strumming mostly... I think it's a great song because of the inspiring combination of thoughts in the lyrics. This praise and worship song expresses two very important ideas:

1. the basic life goal of every Christian: to glorify the Lord each day of this life and beyond
2. two important attributes of God- kindness and patience for His people

Aw. Brimming with delight. I desire to worship and just bask in the love of God..!

Bless the Lord, o my soul... o my soul...worship Your Holy Name!