Peachie must try abstinence

As much as I hate to say it, I think I'm having to much of a good time recently. Too much that I feel unsettled with the imbalance, hehehehe...such condition is not good.

I don't want to be a killjoy or return to my solitude lifestyle, but I just think that I should exercise some self-control on my part. I know myself too well to understand that I am going beyond the capacity of my human self (weirdo). I cannot go 'blaming the environment' for being too conducive for some good-old self-gratification.

My closest friends should know: like most of us in the circle, peach is an adventurer at heart. And to state it simply, I think I'm committing 'overindulgence.' My next step to this now is to resolve to take advantage of what capacity I can humanly manage and do what I should with this fault of mine...

How, you may ask? Well I've been trying to avoid pinpointing the GCF (nyahahaha greatest common factor, yeah right, peach and math? eeeeeeew).

I just think I should stop seeing someone for a while. Yun lang. Kasi frankly the fault is all mine. It's my issue to address. I should keep my head (and myself, come on) on the course I am in. Do my duties. Keep me sane. Keep me busy and interested with med-surg, etc.

And above all, put myself together and go back to my routine of daily spiritual nourishment, which kind of slipped off since I started this addicting habit of going away, hehehehe. As I had proclaimed to myself one bright weekend morning, I just can't- and don't- want to be without God- ever!!! I will be empty again if so.

And as I have committed myself into a personal relationship with Him (na sana noon ko pa hinangad) dapat di ba in-uupdate ko yung sarili ko, as in make contact every beautiful day He gives? Ayun...and I don't like the idea na mas pinipili ko pang habaan ang oras ko with some others when I lack so much time for the Lord who deserves all the glory, duh.

Ayan tuloy, I'm getting more stressed more often...and I feel that I am losing my focus on the race of life...

So I'm trying my best to veer myself away from my overindulgence. Abstinence kung baga. Just to reshift my focus back to the Big Boss, si Itay.

The big question is, how long can I hold up to this? Aaaaaa Lord!!!!

Bumming it out big time

OK fine, so doing the laundry and fixing up my pamphlets for the next duty isn't something that one would call 'fun activity.' But since it does not involve opening my books, I consider it bummin' out. Probably one of my favorite hobbies these days,hmm...*shrug*

Anyway I'm being bitten by the mosquitoes...grr these little pests...

I'm just done with my pamphlets for the health center teachings to be done throughout the shift in Posadas. I just talked with Therese, had a small chitty chat with Bern yesterday...I miss my one and only Bech...hahahaha. Something tells me I should spend some good time with them after the upcoming exams this last week of August (yeah, long wait that is...). Maybe I should ask Rep to plan a bit of a go-out for all of us...

Speaking of which, natatawa na lang ako sa batang iyan...he can fume me ever so dearly but never once had he given me A LOT to think of...until one afternoon, when he texted me some sad episode he's got to deal with. Of course I'm not entitled to spill that but all I can say is that, besides of course that he's just darned feminine (64% to be exact, nyehehehe fine, I'm half-kidding), it astounds me still to realize how people give me much to wonder about, regardless of whoever they are to me.

I don't want to cry, but...

Just today I got to get home at around 8 pm. Yey...*TOJ* (tears of joy)

Yes, you might laugh at this like I do now, but it gives me a warm fuzzy feel somehow to see this through my stressors now. I am loaded with workworkwork, but nevertheless I still got time to appreciate the gifts, the blessings I enjoy around this hostile and cruel world of ours, yeah! Amen to that...

I have a lot of stories to tell after being off this bloghabit for so long...last was my feud trip with therese, hahahaha. And now I just have to pull myself away from this sanctuario of mine before I put pics in and tell you guys of my batcave visits in Bulacan...literally!!!

At yun nga palang mga tagpo namin ng aking pinakamalupit- ah, I mean- pinakamalapit na friendshippers na kagagaling lang ng Bangkok last tuesday...grabe, I just have to say thank you again for that wonderful elephant stuff you smuggled- ah, I mean, brought in, hehehehe. Seriously I appreciated the gift (not the thought? whahahaha). Thank you. And the first time trip was cool, and the dinner...

Ay, why am I even telling now...come on Peachie, don't get started when you're supposed to be doing your Pharma, Socio, Pedia, Med-surg...

BTW! I plan to try the tet for wanna-be MDs. Yeah!!! Hmmm...