Very happy.:)
In the wee hours of the morning, I am basking in the thankfulness that I have for the Lord. Just when I thought I knew what it meant to be fine, here I am realizing that things can indeed get better and sweeter- especially my relationship with God.
So what happened? No rain of manna or a thousand loaves here, but more of... rejoicing. It's an ongoing process, a beautiful journey in finding God. Sounds totally cliche, but now I am deeply contemplating the meaning of this often-used statement. *sigh*
I am not saying I have a perfect relationship with God...far from it. But in the silence/restlessness/contemplation these past few months, I am now understanding that there is nothing more definite than my identity and will in the light of God's identity and will. Meaning that I can only surely find my significance through knowing Him. And it's not just a trial thing...it's a commitment that I have to decide fully on.
Do I have my heart set to it? I hope so. And after the incident last Sunday, I believe God has empowered me more again in my weakness. And following God comes out of habit... it's not a buffet menu wherein I can select only what I want. I must be willing to embrace all that the Lord deems well for me.
"Above all, guard your heart..."
With these realizations, I also came face to face with my personal challenge again. I guess lately I am accepting that I have a particularly weak spot in the coronaries...ouch. Nowadays it's like when I see him (seldom) or think about him (often), my whole sense is thrown out through the glass window. I am very much aware that this is just another state of distant limerence...but my heart's crazy enough to go with it at each encounter! Grr.
How to deal with it? Of course, eliminate the source. So that means: Go kill myself? Or shoot him instead! No no. Haha.
For the meantime I think a crucial point is 1.avoidance. Don't go looking for the source. And 2.diversion. Keep busy and productive. Sweep the house daily if needed. Read good books. Wash dishes and pots at once. Play more piano pieces. Fold dry laundry. Hit more pro points in Wii tennis, boxing, and bowling. ALWAYS do the devotions...pray, pray, pray.
Hahahaha. My current selection of methods is very domestic. And he is just an ordinary man, like the flu. But inflicting me quite the plague. Hahahaha.
And what do I do when the plague asks for my number?
Ah. S.O.S. Shall overcome soon. Lord!!!
The Rock vs John Cena @ Wrestlemania 28: The Aftermath
April 2, 2012.
And so the match we had all been waiting for finally went down in Sun Life Stadium as the main event of the night. I watched it with my brothers at home through cable TV, one day after the actual show. Wishing to preserve the element of suspense, I even kept myself from checking the net for the results. I thought that as a fan, I just had to watch and enjoy it cluelessly like everyone else in the stadium.
So now, after that, I ask myself: Was it worth the wait?
The Entrance
I am aware that, having watched previous pay-per-view offers of the WWE, that main event entrances are expectedly grander than the usual. But the sing-and-dance numbers just proved to be too lame for a heated battle between two characters who are being built up as big rivals who really, really hate each other (at least that's how the storyline goes). Although the numbers made use of the event's theme songs, I don't think it was fitting for the matchup. The main event entrances had an effect much like shiny hang-up decors and stringed running lights smothering a Chriatmas tree. Of course Wrestlemania is for the supporting (and paying) fans, but I think they went too far with this.
Nowadays I'm hearing a lot of feedback that the true spirit of wrestling entertainment is dying as more emphasis and airtime is being given for gimmicks unrelated to the ongoings in the ring. The sing-and-dance choice for the "match of the night" underscored that idea. Forgive the nostalgia, but this made me yearn for the good-old days of Austin's shatter-glass entrance, Undertaker's hooded entourage, Shawn's impressive flight, and even Triple H's 'Kings' theme. There's a positive side to this, though- the entrances for this event left so much room for improvement.
The Match
The rivals started off by facing each other, taunting each other nonverbally. It's amazing enough to have two of these superstars in one ring, and both of them, knowingly cashing in on that, acted smart. These two popular entertainers showed the world again that they have the skill to thrill the crowd, and the fans- cheering 'Rocky' or 'Cena'- responded accordingly as they fed on the suspense.
After a while of holding back, they started off. They took turns giving each other a taste of their in-ring moves. From here I had a foreboding feeling that this would not be as action-packed as expected. Or perhaps it's just the warm-up...
According to the commentators, The Rock has an injury in the midsection, and so Cena kept crushing him with both arms around his chest. This went on for a while, and the unchallenging and repetitive move made me sleepy. Come on, where's the action?!
And later there was a moment at the top of the turn buckle (not believable)...the submission holds (yawn, bad acting)...the FU, and then the People's Elbow, which had everone screaming. I particularly enjoyed that part, because it's classic. Cena's special moves also had me watching closely. I was laughing when the Rock waved his open right hand in a mocking imitation of Cena's trademark "you can't see me" taunt, right before it backfired as Cena countered it with a fist to his face.
But that's about it. Everything else aside from their special moves just made me raise my eyebrow and pretend that I can't see the match that was going down...in rating. Cliche, cliche, cliche.
The Finale
And just when I thought that the match would go agonizingly longer, Cena finds a moment to make a mockery of the People's elbow as he takes off his green Cenation arm band and tosses it to the crowd. And just as he was hitting the ropes for the phenomenal elbow drop, The Rock quickly gets up, grabs him, and nails him down in a solid Rock Bottom...and the pinfall...1,2,3. The end.
My Analysis
Many people had claimed that this was a match worth watching. My favorite superstar HBK had even remarked that this matchup was a rarity, thus the high anticipation. Everyone had thought they'd finally see these two very charismatic icons put up the best show ever.
I agree that both Cena and The Rock are two of the most popular superstars in the business. It follows that they are also two of the most marketable guys in this season. But as their match has already proved it, they are certainly not the best in-ring performers in this era. With a considerably good record of matches, The Rock is capable of putting up a more impressive match than this. So what happened? Has he gone soft? Has he developed the star complex and now refuses to work on strategial action-packed matches with other superstars, whom he now considers subordinate to him? I am hoping that this is not the case. I am a fan of the eyebrow-raising, pie-eating actor with the undeniable appeal of an action star in and out of the ring. I dare him to prove me wrong in this supposition.
And what of John Cena? I strongly agree with the Cenation that he is cool, creative, and...Cenatic. He has his own brand- no, wait- he IS his own brand. Yet I think he needs to improve on his techniques in the ring and create more over-the-top matches if he wants to be the total package. Some fans have accepted that he's not gonna improve because he's just naturally too buff and bulky to be doing throwing, tumbling, and high-flying moves. But his life story (like The Rock's) tells of a man doing more than what is expected of him to have his dreams. Well if he was willing to go the distance to reach his current level of success, he might as well step up his game- and fast.
My Verdict
Nevertheless, as a fan, I was disappointed. I was expecting a lot of action this time from both of them, but for me, they failed to deliver. The wait was not worth it. I wish the bookers just put HHH and Undertaker last in the roster as the main event. That would have been more fitting as a Wrestlemania main event. (Rating: 6/10)
Predictions and Future Thoughts
Initially I thought that the victory would be given to Cena, since his fan base is younger compared to that of the Rock. But the location turned out to be a more crucial factor in that decision. The Rock was billed from Miami early in his career, so I guess the corporate side of the company found it appropriate to make him the winner of the matchup.
And the way Cena had handled it (he was talking to the fans through the video recording during his entrance to the ring, which I think is kinda breaking kayfabe as he was not focusing on this rivalry with his opponent), perhaps he found it...unacceptable, and just went through the motions to the end of the 30-minute show. Or was he just really not in his performance mood that night and just trashed it for both of them?
And on to the future... What of these two now? I read somewhere that The Rock might not be showing up for a long time again due to his hectic taping schedule. I hope not. His victory would be futile if so. In common sense, victory should be given to the player who deserves to be built up as a face in the company. In my opinion, the company might be able to make better storylines (and cash) if they gave Cena the victory...that is, if The Rock really plans on making his next movies anyway. Defeating The Rock would have given Cena a good boost.
But then again, maybe the creative team has got better ideas in store for future storylines. I had predicted that Lesnar would be the one to pick up where the Rock may leave off...and I am sensing that maybe, just maybe... it can work in their favor.
Past the year-long promotion and development of this much-awaited matchup, the People's Champ and the Leader of the Cenation battle it out (as The Rock fondly puts it, "Fiiinally!") in Miami, Florida.
It had been a long wait. It had been exciting enough to watch The Rock making his electrifying comeback to WWE in the early 2011, (much to the surprise of his millions and millions of fans, especially since he seemed to have made it apparent for a while that he had no intention of returning, not after he had made all those movies). And while this unexpected revival of Rockymania was just getting everyone at the edge of their seats in anticipation of his next move, he turns on the unsuspecting Cena, dissing the Cenation and bringing up some unfinished business with the King of Thuganomics, who of course, lashes out Cena-rap style, complete with purple pinwheels, fruity pebbles, and his chain gang style of subtle mockery in humorous rhythmic gimmicks.
It had been a long wait. It had been exciting enough to watch The Rock making his electrifying comeback to WWE in the early 2011, (much to the surprise of his millions and millions of fans, especially since he seemed to have made it apparent for a while that he had no intention of returning, not after he had made all those movies). And while this unexpected revival of Rockymania was just getting everyone at the edge of their seats in anticipation of his next move, he turns on the unsuspecting Cena, dissing the Cenation and bringing up some unfinished business with the King of Thuganomics, who of course, lashes out Cena-rap style, complete with purple pinwheels, fruity pebbles, and his chain gang style of subtle mockery in humorous rhythmic gimmicks.
And so the match we had all been waiting for finally went down in Sun Life Stadium as the main event of the night. I watched it with my brothers at home through cable TV, one day after the actual show. Wishing to preserve the element of suspense, I even kept myself from checking the net for the results. I thought that as a fan, I just had to watch and enjoy it cluelessly like everyone else in the stadium.
So now, after that, I ask myself: Was it worth the wait?
The Entrance
I am aware that, having watched previous pay-per-view offers of the WWE, that main event entrances are expectedly grander than the usual. But the sing-and-dance numbers just proved to be too lame for a heated battle between two characters who are being built up as big rivals who really, really hate each other (at least that's how the storyline goes). Although the numbers made use of the event's theme songs, I don't think it was fitting for the matchup. The main event entrances had an effect much like shiny hang-up decors and stringed running lights smothering a Chriatmas tree. Of course Wrestlemania is for the supporting (and paying) fans, but I think they went too far with this.
Nowadays I'm hearing a lot of feedback that the true spirit of wrestling entertainment is dying as more emphasis and airtime is being given for gimmicks unrelated to the ongoings in the ring. The sing-and-dance choice for the "match of the night" underscored that idea. Forgive the nostalgia, but this made me yearn for the good-old days of Austin's shatter-glass entrance, Undertaker's hooded entourage, Shawn's impressive flight, and even Triple H's 'Kings' theme. There's a positive side to this, though- the entrances for this event left so much room for improvement.
The Match
The rivals started off by facing each other, taunting each other nonverbally. It's amazing enough to have two of these superstars in one ring, and both of them, knowingly cashing in on that, acted smart. These two popular entertainers showed the world again that they have the skill to thrill the crowd, and the fans- cheering 'Rocky' or 'Cena'- responded accordingly as they fed on the suspense.
After a while of holding back, they started off. They took turns giving each other a taste of their in-ring moves. From here I had a foreboding feeling that this would not be as action-packed as expected. Or perhaps it's just the warm-up...
According to the commentators, The Rock has an injury in the midsection, and so Cena kept crushing him with both arms around his chest. This went on for a while, and the unchallenging and repetitive move made me sleepy. Come on, where's the action?!
And later there was a moment at the top of the turn buckle (not believable)...the submission holds (yawn, bad acting)...the FU, and then the People's Elbow, which had everone screaming. I particularly enjoyed that part, because it's classic. Cena's special moves also had me watching closely. I was laughing when the Rock waved his open right hand in a mocking imitation of Cena's trademark "you can't see me" taunt, right before it backfired as Cena countered it with a fist to his face.
But that's about it. Everything else aside from their special moves just made me raise my eyebrow and pretend that I can't see the match that was going down...in rating. Cliche, cliche, cliche.
The Finale
And just when I thought that the match would go agonizingly longer, Cena finds a moment to make a mockery of the People's elbow as he takes off his green Cenation arm band and tosses it to the crowd. And just as he was hitting the ropes for the phenomenal elbow drop, The Rock quickly gets up, grabs him, and nails him down in a solid Rock Bottom...and the pinfall...1,2,3. The end.
My Analysis
Many people had claimed that this was a match worth watching. My favorite superstar HBK had even remarked that this matchup was a rarity, thus the high anticipation. Everyone had thought they'd finally see these two very charismatic icons put up the best show ever.
I agree that both Cena and The Rock are two of the most popular superstars in the business. It follows that they are also two of the most marketable guys in this season. But as their match has already proved it, they are certainly not the best in-ring performers in this era. With a considerably good record of matches, The Rock is capable of putting up a more impressive match than this. So what happened? Has he gone soft? Has he developed the star complex and now refuses to work on strategial action-packed matches with other superstars, whom he now considers subordinate to him? I am hoping that this is not the case. I am a fan of the eyebrow-raising, pie-eating actor with the undeniable appeal of an action star in and out of the ring. I dare him to prove me wrong in this supposition.
And what of John Cena? I strongly agree with the Cenation that he is cool, creative, and...Cenatic. He has his own brand- no, wait- he IS his own brand. Yet I think he needs to improve on his techniques in the ring and create more over-the-top matches if he wants to be the total package. Some fans have accepted that he's not gonna improve because he's just naturally too buff and bulky to be doing throwing, tumbling, and high-flying moves. But his life story (like The Rock's) tells of a man doing more than what is expected of him to have his dreams. Well if he was willing to go the distance to reach his current level of success, he might as well step up his game- and fast.
My Verdict
Nevertheless, as a fan, I was disappointed. I was expecting a lot of action this time from both of them, but for me, they failed to deliver. The wait was not worth it. I wish the bookers just put HHH and Undertaker last in the roster as the main event. That would have been more fitting as a Wrestlemania main event. (Rating: 6/10)
Predictions and Future Thoughts
Initially I thought that the victory would be given to Cena, since his fan base is younger compared to that of the Rock. But the location turned out to be a more crucial factor in that decision. The Rock was billed from Miami early in his career, so I guess the corporate side of the company found it appropriate to make him the winner of the matchup.
And the way Cena had handled it (he was talking to the fans through the video recording during his entrance to the ring, which I think is kinda breaking kayfabe as he was not focusing on this rivalry with his opponent), perhaps he found it...unacceptable, and just went through the motions to the end of the 30-minute show. Or was he just really not in his performance mood that night and just trashed it for both of them?
And on to the future... What of these two now? I read somewhere that The Rock might not be showing up for a long time again due to his hectic taping schedule. I hope not. His victory would be futile if so. In common sense, victory should be given to the player who deserves to be built up as a face in the company. In my opinion, the company might be able to make better storylines (and cash) if they gave Cena the victory...that is, if The Rock really plans on making his next movies anyway. Defeating The Rock would have given Cena a good boost.
But then again, maybe the creative team has got better ideas in store for future storylines. I had predicted that Lesnar would be the one to pick up where the Rock may leave off...and I am sensing that maybe, just maybe... it can work in their favor.
Le Festin
*Listening to 'Why' by Secondhand Serenade*
So what's next, Lord? Am I going back to my teaching stint? You tell me! Ha! Last night was fantastic, by the way. That guy Jojo was really an impressive wise speaker. Also Paul. As a natural logician I keep thinking about the reason behind having a church. Why the need? What makes it necessary?
But then I may have to abandon this contemplation for the meantime when I think: Is not the blessedness of belonging to such a warm community enough to convince me to keep going to church and really belonging to such Godly fellowship? Of course I will continue asking my questions and probing wise minds for satisfactory answers...but even without totally comprehending everything now (which will never absolutely occur in my lifetime of existence), I go with the joy...and faith... Belonging to the fellowship...is just joyful. Being with people who really share the same joy...is beautiful. I seriously wonder about it.
Also there's my thing for my brothers. I hope that in the remaining days of my vacation, I get to know them better...and know how to treat them best in various situations. I want to be a good sister to them. I want to learn more about handling the household affairs, too. I want to learn how to cook more dishes for them!
Work, church, family... let's see what happens. Go Lord! You really work according to your plan and your own time.
Also, bless the person who happens to be reading this.^^
Also, bless the person who happens to be reading this.^^
Three days left
Tonight I write.
It's been a while since I felt the urge to write something here. It's almost midnight. After another day of studying and typical house chores, I'm in my element again, and that means I am in my optimal performance to the dawn. After this net break, I am definitely going to go back to studying Physics and Chemistry. Yeah!
It's strange, though...I've had some interesting insights these past few days. Maybe it's greatly due to the pre-hype for my upcoming government exam, which is taking place this Sunday. Although I DID allot about 25 days for my studying session, I only started seriously delving into specific topics just two days ago, which means that technically I'm only using six days of studying for this very important exam.
Yes, I got lazy. So undisciplined. No excuses for that, heh. Some things don't easily change.
But on the bright side, I AM actually studying for this one... unlike that time with my licensure exam (I did a lot of light reading for that one). It feels refreshing to think that it's really been years since I have studied this hard- with focus and determination. Even with the cramming issue here, I realize now that I am studying purposefully this time. Gradually, I am coming to terms with my life ambitions. I am seeing a definite reason for striving that is in line with God's plans for me.
On the lighter side, my occasional mood shifts from confidence to terror is an evidence of how much I value this opportunity before me.
Wow...I am actually driven to fight for my dream. I know that I have to do well this Sunday because my dream is at stake! Can I do it? Can I get an impressive score? Of course~ by faith, I will get to the second step, and third, and fourth...and then...*excitement bubbling* Oh, but I am terrible at Math... well, I did finish studying that today, but still, the numbers make me cringe...
Lord, please let me have this one. I believe that this has been the leap of faith you've been telling me to go for. So here I am- not contemplating or visualizing, but- presently MAKING that solid step forward. Ikaw na ang bahala sa akin.
Here's to fighting for the dream.
It's been a while since I felt the urge to write something here. It's almost midnight. After another day of studying and typical house chores, I'm in my element again, and that means I am in my optimal performance to the dawn. After this net break, I am definitely going to go back to studying Physics and Chemistry. Yeah!
It's strange, though...I've had some interesting insights these past few days. Maybe it's greatly due to the pre-hype for my upcoming government exam, which is taking place this Sunday. Although I DID allot about 25 days for my studying session, I only started seriously delving into specific topics just two days ago, which means that technically I'm only using six days of studying for this very important exam.
Yes, I got lazy. So undisciplined. No excuses for that, heh. Some things don't easily change.
But on the bright side, I AM actually studying for this one... unlike that time with my licensure exam (I did a lot of light reading for that one). It feels refreshing to think that it's really been years since I have studied this hard- with focus and determination. Even with the cramming issue here, I realize now that I am studying purposefully this time. Gradually, I am coming to terms with my life ambitions. I am seeing a definite reason for striving that is in line with God's plans for me.
On the lighter side, my occasional mood shifts from confidence to terror is an evidence of how much I value this opportunity before me.
Wow...I am actually driven to fight for my dream. I know that I have to do well this Sunday because my dream is at stake! Can I do it? Can I get an impressive score? Of course~ by faith, I will get to the second step, and third, and fourth...and then...*excitement bubbling* Oh, but I am terrible at Math... well, I did finish studying that today, but still, the numbers make me cringe...
Lord, please let me have this one. I believe that this has been the leap of faith you've been telling me to go for. So here I am- not contemplating or visualizing, but- presently MAKING that solid step forward. Ikaw na ang bahala sa akin.
Here's to fighting for the dream.
Cashier for a day
just got home from my special shift... since i just got on my indefinite leave from work to study for my special exam, i had a lot of free time in my hands. well of course i have to study and focus on producing an above average score on my march 25 exam, but that doesn't mean i shouldn't enjoy new experiences.
so this morning, after waking up from a despairing dream, i decided to spice up my day a bit by volunteering to come along with my mother to the drug store in bulacan, which is about an hour's drive away from our house. recently, my mother is managing the entire operations of the drug store, so she'd need all the help she could get. i figured that she needed it today in particular, because she had a lot of bank-related transactions to finish. someone always needs to keep an eye on the employees and man the main cashier booth...and just for today i decided to give it a try. so without much thought, i put on some casual clothes and went off with her.
i thought it was going to be easy, but soon i realized that running a pharmacy is not at all simple. there was no time to relax. as soon as i got in, i found myself counting and handing out cash and coins, being careful to keep the balance in the accounts. on the side, the employees had me check other things, too. i soon forgot to take a break and eat lunch. in the store, eating is not allowed in order to keep pests away...so at around 6pm i was hypoglycemic...my sugar was running low and i was starting to feel dizzy then. i was also having miscalculations in my transactions, so i knew i had to find a solution quickly. i didn't want to distract anyone, though- so i simply asked for a bottle of coke to keep me standing there. it was good enough to get my presence of mind back, but not good for my stomach due to the resulting increase in acidity.-.-
at around 7:30 my mother called me to a particular area by the stock room to have dinner. the viand was fried fish. typically i don't like fish that is not served hot, but my hunger overwhelmed me, so i just wolfed down three fish and a bit of rice. yum. and then i expressed to my mother how amazed i am with her endurance...being able to stay there and take care of the operations. it's quite a task for just one person, really. i felt glad to know then that my coming to the office has helped my mother in finishing some accounting tasks for today. i believe that this experience has taught me a lot. the most important thing i got is a more profound understanding of my mother's recent experiences. she's quite a woman. i can proudly say that she's a great sister to my uncle and a good mother to me. she's so persevering. i wish i had the same level of perseverance... but now i realize, i need so much more to learn how to handle things that efficiently.
on the way home, i played some of my songs... in particular i played and played safe and sound (taylor swift) and in heaven (jyj). earlier in the afternoon i had the chance to organize my playlists, espcially the new set of songs which my friend had shared with me, so i decided to test them on the road. the music got me in the mood, so i urged my mom to eat something. i was just supposed to get a serving of vanilla frappuccino, but i had to choose another option due to availability issues- i opted for a zinger double down - that's two slices of spicy chicken with bacon and cheese in between. i shared it with my mother, who thought that it was superb (her first time to try it)^^
now it's time to sleep. gonna read a book again and slip away to dreamland.
so this morning, after waking up from a despairing dream, i decided to spice up my day a bit by volunteering to come along with my mother to the drug store in bulacan, which is about an hour's drive away from our house. recently, my mother is managing the entire operations of the drug store, so she'd need all the help she could get. i figured that she needed it today in particular, because she had a lot of bank-related transactions to finish. someone always needs to keep an eye on the employees and man the main cashier booth...and just for today i decided to give it a try. so without much thought, i put on some casual clothes and went off with her.
i thought it was going to be easy, but soon i realized that running a pharmacy is not at all simple. there was no time to relax. as soon as i got in, i found myself counting and handing out cash and coins, being careful to keep the balance in the accounts. on the side, the employees had me check other things, too. i soon forgot to take a break and eat lunch. in the store, eating is not allowed in order to keep pests away...so at around 6pm i was hypoglycemic...my sugar was running low and i was starting to feel dizzy then. i was also having miscalculations in my transactions, so i knew i had to find a solution quickly. i didn't want to distract anyone, though- so i simply asked for a bottle of coke to keep me standing there. it was good enough to get my presence of mind back, but not good for my stomach due to the resulting increase in acidity.-.-
at around 7:30 my mother called me to a particular area by the stock room to have dinner. the viand was fried fish. typically i don't like fish that is not served hot, but my hunger overwhelmed me, so i just wolfed down three fish and a bit of rice. yum. and then i expressed to my mother how amazed i am with her endurance...being able to stay there and take care of the operations. it's quite a task for just one person, really. i felt glad to know then that my coming to the office has helped my mother in finishing some accounting tasks for today. i believe that this experience has taught me a lot. the most important thing i got is a more profound understanding of my mother's recent experiences. she's quite a woman. i can proudly say that she's a great sister to my uncle and a good mother to me. she's so persevering. i wish i had the same level of perseverance... but now i realize, i need so much more to learn how to handle things that efficiently.
on the way home, i played some of my songs... in particular i played and played safe and sound (taylor swift) and in heaven (jyj). earlier in the afternoon i had the chance to organize my playlists, espcially the new set of songs which my friend had shared with me, so i decided to test them on the road. the music got me in the mood, so i urged my mom to eat something. i was just supposed to get a serving of vanilla frappuccino, but i had to choose another option due to availability issues- i opted for a zinger double down - that's two slices of spicy chicken with bacon and cheese in between. i shared it with my mother, who thought that it was superb (her first time to try it)^^
now it's time to sleep. gonna read a book again and slip away to dreamland.
Tales of the Lull (5 stories)
Past the special farewell dinner I had with my school buddies (Jas, Ian, Yeong Ki, Jim, JR), I am currently seated in front of the computer monitor- the only source of light in this darkened room where I am staying in at the time. I admit that I am finding it hard to fall asleep these days. Maybe it's because of all the changes that are happening to me.
Even then, I must say that being able to handle big group classes has its perks. My morning classes get rowdy at times because of the super shows they put up. I get to meet more people and establish social connections with them. Also, I get more chances to practice speaking in front of other people (as if I'm not having a load of that, heh). Unfortunately/fortunately I have to leave the teaching stint shortly because of my personal business. But overall, what a lovely experience...^^
First, there's the list of decisions I had made: there's the med thing, the 3/30 thing, the indefinite leave thing... so much is happening at this time that I find it hard to take in everything all at once. And then there are the goodbyes all around me. Suddenly, people are walking out of my life at one period. Some are just going for a vacation. Others are simply moving up and about to find their niche in society. Both are reasonable, of course, but as I have especially learned these past few weeks, no amount of rationalizing can ever truly obliterate the pain of detachment, right? It's atypical of me to do so, but I have altogether stopped formulating reasons for this growing feeling of loneliness, which is a virus at its most thriving stage this week.
Ah! The goodbyes...I never grow out of them.
But well, the recent miracle is that I have grown tired of thinking. Haha! The logician experiences a temporary shut down... and perhaps for the meantime, the mental vacation is good.
1:25am, says the computer clock. I have my big group class first thing in the morning and I'm still awake here, downloading some fresh music files. And to think I have a lot of preparation to take care of tomorrow. Super crazy. Thankfully I was bitten by the writer's bug in this downloading lull. Perfect timing.
So now what can I say? Hmm...
Of course... life is not so easy these days... I will always have my set of woes, especially since typically, change is not easily accepted by people, and unfortunately, change is constant, too! Major changes are hard to take in. But on the lighter side, I have my fun or strange encounters to balance my elements... sometimes I feel that the cosmic powers conspire to sprinkle my days with these comical quirks...
Old Connections-
I felt super glad to see one of my student friends- my sister friend- Sophie, back in school. I was so happy that I was literally jumping upon seeing her. She is one of the femmes whom I feel comfortable with. A bonus point is that, without her noticing anything, I mentally paid attention to her speaking as we greeted each other during her return...and it felt good to hear how her speaking has improved, especially with some particular words that I had pointed out to her (strictly!) when she was still part of my small group class. More than that, I am expecting to have more girl-bonding with her and some new girls real soon.^^
I have also received an unexpected package from Dong Hyeon, which prompted me to sigh and ask... What is up with all the chocolate? This is because, as my closest friends know, I typically don't eat snacks that are given to me, unless they are opened right then and there. Truthfully, I don't like chocolates and snacks so much, especially these days. Having received a lot of it last Happy Tuesday, I currently have more than enough fill of glucose and polyphenols.
Nevertheless, I promptly sent a very warm message of thanks for the thoughtful present... and I am slowly consuming them... yummy. I prefer chocolates with rice crispies.^^
Also, four days ago I had the privilege to communicate with one of my favorite students of last year, old Daniel. He is still crazy, hairstyle is crazier, and he remains to be one of my faithful friends to this day.
And what a surprise- good ol' Tony came back from the dead, whoahohoho. He periodically resurfaces from his sea of typical student obligations to say hi to me.
Eddy is Cute-
Oh! Today I fall for the cuteness of Eddy in Pororo (the fox)... suuuuper cute! He has a pair of cute ears which twitch with his expressions. And his eyes...when he smiles, they are just a pair of slits. Normally, they are just a pair of dots. Ah, cute cute cute. I had quickly downloaded a picture of him earlier today. I am planning to watch more of the series to pass time, especially nowadays that I have my lazy hours in the early afternoons. I don't mind sounding like an overgrown kid, coz what the heck, he's cute...come on, no argument about that...
9 vs 1? Bring it on!-
My big group class made me realize all the more how I dislike being on the spotlight! Lecturing in front of people is not really my cup of tea (or my can of coke, haha), but of course as part of my development, I have learned to accept the situation as part of personal improvement. Oh, but how I hate being in front... eeerrgghh...I want to remain in my room if I can choose to! (But of course if I did, there'd be murder, haha!)
I have also received an unexpected package from Dong Hyeon, which prompted me to sigh and ask... What is up with all the chocolate? This is because, as my closest friends know, I typically don't eat snacks that are given to me, unless they are opened right then and there. Truthfully, I don't like chocolates and snacks so much, especially these days. Having received a lot of it last Happy Tuesday, I currently have more than enough fill of glucose and polyphenols.
Nevertheless, I promptly sent a very warm message of thanks for the thoughtful present... and I am slowly consuming them... yummy. I prefer chocolates with rice crispies.^^
Also, four days ago I had the privilege to communicate with one of my favorite students of last year, old Daniel. He is still crazy, hairstyle is crazier, and he remains to be one of my faithful friends to this day.
And what a surprise- good ol' Tony came back from the dead, whoahohoho. He periodically resurfaces from his sea of typical student obligations to say hi to me.
Eddy is Cute-
Oh! Today I fall for the cuteness of Eddy in Pororo (the fox)... suuuuper cute! He has a pair of cute ears which twitch with his expressions. And his eyes...when he smiles, they are just a pair of slits. Normally, they are just a pair of dots. Ah, cute cute cute. I had quickly downloaded a picture of him earlier today. I am planning to watch more of the series to pass time, especially nowadays that I have my lazy hours in the early afternoons. I don't mind sounding like an overgrown kid, coz what the heck, he's cute...come on, no argument about that...
9 vs 1? Bring it on!-
My big group class made me realize all the more how I dislike being on the spotlight! Lecturing in front of people is not really my cup of tea (or my can of coke, haha), but of course as part of my development, I have learned to accept the situation as part of personal improvement. Oh, but how I hate being in front... eeerrgghh...I want to remain in my room if I can choose to! (But of course if I did, there'd be murder, haha!)
Even then, I must say that being able to handle big group classes has its perks. My morning classes get rowdy at times because of the super shows they put up. I get to meet more people and establish social connections with them. Also, I get more chances to practice speaking in front of other people (as if I'm not having a load of that, heh). Unfortunately/fortunately I have to leave the teaching stint shortly because of my personal business. But overall, what a lovely experience...^^
The Man Without the Shirt-
It started one night while I was having dinner with some friends. In particular, Yeong Ki started asking me about my ideal male celebrity. We compared pictures for a while, and when I asked about Won Bin, he immediately obliged and showed me some interesting pictures of him. At one point, I had to look away from his phone at once because he showed me a...hmm... daring picture of this guy. At that time, without my knowledge, he had instantly sent me four pictures in kakao. Imagine my surprise upon seeing the pictures later that night... *self-conscious laughter* yaaaaaa what the..! (at first it was more of shocking, then later it was more of awesome hahahaha) In a nutshell... I totally agree with his appeal. Wow. And just two days ago, I read an article claiming that the he is currently the sexiest Korean, which is... *smiles* not at all surprising...go Won Bin...=^^=
Enough of that. I just find it truly unusual to...umm... giggle because of some raw masculine appeal. Ha!
I can ponder on more stories worth remembering, but for now, optimism counts... and so I have to sleep! That's it.^^
Enough of that. I just find it truly unusual to...umm... giggle because of some raw masculine appeal. Ha!
I can ponder on more stories worth remembering, but for now, optimism counts... and so I have to sleep! That's it.^^
today is a happy day
oh happy day. that's all i can say. today i was almost late for my class, but then it was ok because my student fell ill and was not able to come for writing class. i worried, but anyway i visited a close teacher and we chatted merrily for the duration of second class. not bad, because i missed her a lot. she's my closest female friend in school, so i enjoyed it a lot.
after that we went upstairs to do some office work. i helped craft a new eop badge, with ryan leading us. then lunch break came...so i had to take my toeic test as part of our monthly evaluation. i felt confident about my answers, except for two items. so i might have a pretty good shot at getting some top rank among the teachers. kkkk yey, but i think i shall review some more... right after taking my toeic test, i had fifteen minutes left of the lunch break, so i dashed to the cafeteria to get some quick bite, because i was really hungry. on the way i met teacher kevin, my teammate... so we ate together quickly. it was the first time that i had lunch with him, so it was a novel experience. i think we got to know each other better, which i think is good.^^
next period was sgc. nowadays i am having a fun challenge with my students, three of them, because two went to cebu. we had a very very good discussion about jobs, family, and dreams. i saw myself being very comfortable with them. and it kinda hurt to think that i had only eight days with them. kk but it's ok. i am happy to have known them better these past few days. hmmm... but tomorrow we resume regular sgc class...meaning the challenge is over and we have to go back to the book. i heard them saying, awwwww kkkkk which was enough to make me smile.
after that, as expected, yeong ki was absent. i was with him the night before, so i understood his situation. kkk old people get tired too easily kkk good thing andy was there to entertain me a bit. he is asking for a dinner meeting with me and someone special. i hit him because i know he is just using me as an excuse to spend time with the woman that he likes. kkkk well i can't blame him. my student is actually pretty and i like her because she is kind and diligent.
last class was interesting because i got to play with students and teachers. one student took my bright yellow shoes, and wore them for show. here's the catch- she is seven years old. and she likes me, which is very unusual for kids. another student, who seemed friendly enough, chatted with me as i went on playing around with the little girl.
after thirty minutes, i decided to do some office work, so i went upstairs in the office to help my supervisor make some final test questions. i thought it was fun. one question is my favorite- you're eating in an exotic restaurant and you friend tells you that you are eating monkey brain. what would you do? kkk i like these thought-provoking queries kkkkk
after that, i played the guitar with one of my close friends, ian. i taught him how to play his familiar song. good try for him. also, we had a good chat...then it was time to go home. we had to wait for our other family members to finish with some duties in the office... later, after about forty minutes, jas, jr, jim, ian, and i had a feast...pizza, salad, chicken, fish, squid, potatoes, beer, and iced tea. it was a great way to end a long tiring day. everyone looked tired but happy. i felt dizzy with the delicious taste of all the food we had. while eating, we talked about a lot of funny things. we laughed a lot. on my part, there was a point that i was laughing uncontrollably because of some ridiculous suppositions made mainly by jas. super funny. i was careful not to drink anything as he went on talking. kkk
and now i am home. i had a good chat with my ma. i wish we always had this kind of connection, however things go. after finishing my cleanup, i thought about it and realized that i had a good good day... so i smiled and decided to exercise my writing skills. it's been a while since i had written anything here... what a day. now i must retire. i think i should kkk i hadn't been getting a lot of good sleep these past few days. also the numbness comes and goes... i should take care of this soon.
after that we went upstairs to do some office work. i helped craft a new eop badge, with ryan leading us. then lunch break came...so i had to take my toeic test as part of our monthly evaluation. i felt confident about my answers, except for two items. so i might have a pretty good shot at getting some top rank among the teachers. kkkk yey, but i think i shall review some more... right after taking my toeic test, i had fifteen minutes left of the lunch break, so i dashed to the cafeteria to get some quick bite, because i was really hungry. on the way i met teacher kevin, my teammate... so we ate together quickly. it was the first time that i had lunch with him, so it was a novel experience. i think we got to know each other better, which i think is good.^^
next period was sgc. nowadays i am having a fun challenge with my students, three of them, because two went to cebu. we had a very very good discussion about jobs, family, and dreams. i saw myself being very comfortable with them. and it kinda hurt to think that i had only eight days with them. kk but it's ok. i am happy to have known them better these past few days. hmmm... but tomorrow we resume regular sgc class...meaning the challenge is over and we have to go back to the book. i heard them saying, awwwww kkkkk which was enough to make me smile.
after that, as expected, yeong ki was absent. i was with him the night before, so i understood his situation. kkk old people get tired too easily kkk good thing andy was there to entertain me a bit. he is asking for a dinner meeting with me and someone special. i hit him because i know he is just using me as an excuse to spend time with the woman that he likes. kkkk well i can't blame him. my student is actually pretty and i like her because she is kind and diligent.
last class was interesting because i got to play with students and teachers. one student took my bright yellow shoes, and wore them for show. here's the catch- she is seven years old. and she likes me, which is very unusual for kids. another student, who seemed friendly enough, chatted with me as i went on playing around with the little girl.
after thirty minutes, i decided to do some office work, so i went upstairs in the office to help my supervisor make some final test questions. i thought it was fun. one question is my favorite- you're eating in an exotic restaurant and you friend tells you that you are eating monkey brain. what would you do? kkk i like these thought-provoking queries kkkkk
after that, i played the guitar with one of my close friends, ian. i taught him how to play his familiar song. good try for him. also, we had a good chat...then it was time to go home. we had to wait for our other family members to finish with some duties in the office... later, after about forty minutes, jas, jr, jim, ian, and i had a feast...pizza, salad, chicken, fish, squid, potatoes, beer, and iced tea. it was a great way to end a long tiring day. everyone looked tired but happy. i felt dizzy with the delicious taste of all the food we had. while eating, we talked about a lot of funny things. we laughed a lot. on my part, there was a point that i was laughing uncontrollably because of some ridiculous suppositions made mainly by jas. super funny. i was careful not to drink anything as he went on talking. kkk
and now i am home. i had a good chat with my ma. i wish we always had this kind of connection, however things go. after finishing my cleanup, i thought about it and realized that i had a good good day... so i smiled and decided to exercise my writing skills. it's been a while since i had written anything here... what a day. now i must retire. i think i should kkk i hadn't been getting a lot of good sleep these past few days. also the numbness comes and goes... i should take care of this soon.
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