(Composed as I typed. Crazy... but...)
I guessed I wanted to love you and make you mine. But then now, I realize...it's not my choice because it's not God's will. Hm.
Don't you dare go that way again,
It's gonna be the same pain if you begin.
Do you not remember the times of old,
You were left disappointed and so cold?
Over time you were able to get back on your feet,
Understand- that's enough, and this is it!
Remember that I snatched you with a price to pay,
Even if it cost me dearly just to make THE way.
All I did for you because I'm true!
Love is here, and you know- I love you!
Look at me now and forget about him.
You'll receive the best- more than your dream!
Love is more than just your being happy.
Everything you need, you'll find in me,
All the love and freedom you've yet conceived.
Reach out and dare to risk, believe!
Nothing is impossible, you just wait and see!
Two Poems
Been a poet since I was twelve... got the hype after the English teacher told us to write a haiku as part of written exercise.
Enjoy...
1.Musings~
You are not mine, I am not yours.
I am perhaps yearning for something close to the real thing.
What is it? Some call it love.
And sometimes I'm thinking it's you...
That true love has been standing in front of me for a while.
Am I in love? I've asked myself.
Do you love me? How do you feel?
Yet I cannot bear to ask you for real.
For when I think of it more, I realize that I cannot pay the price.
I cannot commit to someone who doesn't seem to understand the gravity of long-term relationships.
So come, let's leave it in a drawer and forget it.
Hide the proposal under lock and key.
Yes, we are single.
Yes, we are free.
No, I won't ever love you.
2.The Winning Song
It's a glorious day of celebration
A festivity of friendships and fiery passion
My eyes saw the smiles, my ears heard the laughter
Though a song in my mind sounded so much beter
How time slow-danced as I met your gaze
Embracing my senses through the crowded haze
While everyone else melted away in applause
I saw only you in that moment's pause
Nothing mattered as you held me firmly
Nothing else but your smile, and you and me
Even my heart can never go wrong
Resounding your secret winning song
Don't mind the world as we sway to the sound
Don't mind the commotion of everyone around
All I know is I hear the song
As it tells me clearly we both belong
To the fortunate few who can really hear
To such blessed hearts wthout much fear
Go on and take your hero's stand
Go ahead and feel it, take her hand
All you know is you hear the song
And it tells you clearly you both belong
Not Why But When
Someday, you will realize why this is happening- including all the disgusting hair growth, unusual complexion, and uneven distribution of body mass. Oh, and the persecution, rejection, and ostracism. Though your sorrow may last for a night, you'll see...joy comes in the morning. You know in your heart that I am with you always and I love you.
~ God, to the contemplative caterpillar
~ God, to the contemplative caterpillar
Why 10,000 Reasons captured my interest
Recently I was able to listen to one of the songs at the Christian billboard, entitled, "10,000 Reasons" by Matt Redman. From the start of the song I was spellbound. I literally had to put down my book to pay more attention to it. It really stopped the time for me. That means it's a good song...
So what makes it special? The rhythm is not so new- just guitar strumming mostly... I think it's a great song because of the inspiring combination of thoughts in the lyrics. This praise and worship song expresses two very important ideas:
1. the basic life goal of every Christian: to glorify the Lord each day of this life and beyond
2. two important attributes of God- kindness and patience for His people
Aw. Brimming with delight. I desire to worship and just bask in the love of God..!
Bless the Lord, o my soul... o my soul...worship Your Holy Name!
So what makes it special? The rhythm is not so new- just guitar strumming mostly... I think it's a great song because of the inspiring combination of thoughts in the lyrics. This praise and worship song expresses two very important ideas:
1. the basic life goal of every Christian: to glorify the Lord each day of this life and beyond
2. two important attributes of God- kindness and patience for His people
Aw. Brimming with delight. I desire to worship and just bask in the love of God..!
Bless the Lord, o my soul... o my soul...worship Your Holy Name!
Masanay Ka Na
Hay Diyos ko, sabi ko nga po eh...
Sa gabing ito, pagkalipas ng aking pagmumuni at ating pag-uusap, naipaalala Niyo po sa akin ang isang *sabay tingin sa google ng katumbas na salita* bersikulo sa aklat ni Pedro-
(eto hindi ko na maitatagalog at nako... hahaha)
1 Peter 12-13- "Dear friends, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal that has come on you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice inasmuch as you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed."
Dapat hindi na po ako nagugulat sa nangyayari sa akin... lalo na nitong mga huling linggo na sinusubok ang katatagan ng aking pananampalataya. Ang hirap lalo na kung ang mga mahal mo ang mismong nagbibigay ng hirap sa iyo. Alam ko naman na pangako ng Diyos ang pagsalba sa 'kanila'... siyempre sa takdang oras at plano Niyo po, darating iyan... Hay, ewan ko ba.
...
Nako, mare...masanay ka na. Ayos lang, masaya ka naman. Totoong masaya...malaya...panatag ang loob dahil sa Kanya.
Sa ngayon, nararapat lang na maging matatag... ganyan talaga ang resulta ng isang matinding pagpapasiya: Malamang may mga dapat isantabi...mga bagay na hindi na mahalaga kung ang pagtutuunan ng pansin ay ang bagay na napiling panindigan. :)
Diyos ko... lagi Niyo po akong paalalahanan... Salamat po sa karunungan na ibinibigay Niyo. Turuan Niyo po akong maging matatag...
9 Books (and why you ought to pick them up asap)
I've been a bookworm for as long as I can remember (yes, I literally started the addiction from picture books). Must be the smell of the pages... but more than that, I think that books are, as my friend once told me in my college days, "intellectual investments." Every book has some considerable value which goes beyond its price tag. Never mind the popular reads... but for me, there are only three types of books:
Class A- You must read this before you die! (Revolutionary.)
Class B- You should read this. (Highly recommended.)
Class C- You may read this. (Or not.)
I believe that books are indispensable, and there are some particularly memorable ones which have heavily influenced my way of thinking, mostly in my walk with the Lord. This is why I have made a list of the books which I hope that all people should read as soon as possible. So far, there are 27 titles in my list, but here, I will only be talking about nine... lest you'd want to spend a very long dinner with me to discuss each.
So! Not in order... here are my Top 9 (Class A) book selections, all published by OMF-
1. The Jesus I Never Knew by Philip Yancey-
Yancey's inquisitive nature has captured the sentiment of the world, including mine, I believe. His writings come off so genuine because he asks the raw questions that not too many believers would want to delve in. I think I was able to know more of the Lord's omnipotence AND humility by reading this book, which is a product of Yancey's personal search for God. It offers a closer (and I mean really CLOSER) look on the persona of Jesus- his godly and human attributes. If you're serious about knowing Jesus and you have (or you want to have) a personal relationship with him, then this is a very important book to read. Very heavy, but profoundly satisfying.
2. Eros Redeemed by John White-
Agape is the popular type, but in the popular culture, Eros is the mainstay. In a time when sexual liberation is becoming an accepted norm, White opens the discussion of Eros through this brilliant exposition. In this book, he boldly discusses sexual love as God's wonderful creation, and also dispels common and wrong beliefs about it. In detail, he talks about the gravity of sexual sin, and why it is indeed one of the worst sins to deal with. In a sex-crazed society, this is a much-needed read for a better perspective. I don't care if it's an old book- the issues presented within are still very much apparent in the modern day. I believe that my view of sex has improved through reading this book.
3. The Bondage Breaker by Neil Anderson-
I've read this for about 14 times, and I still think it rightly belongs to the shelves of the classics. Anderson comes up with a detailed list (yes, there is a list) of worldly elements which can be sources of bondages for people, Christian or non-Christian. Many books discuss about sin, but few contain straightforward points like the ones in this book. From this I learned that sin does not stop at just the act of sinning- there is more to it than just the "wrong" action, both in the natural and supernatural realms. Reading this more than once has deepened my understanding of strongholds, and, more importantly, of my freedom in Christ. If you want to know more about that, then this is the book to read.
4. What's So Amazing About Grace? by Philip Yancey-
Another self-searching book of Yancey, this attempts to explain the grace of God in a more detailed fashion. Yancey uses accounts of different people to show the transcendent power of grace and why everyone- and I mean every one of us- needs it. Having had my share of doubts regarding grace, I would gladly give this book to someone who wants to be assured of the mystery of God's finished work of salvation through Jesus. Mind-blowing (come on, it's a Yancey pick), but very sincere. I can feel the heart of "a man after God's own heart" beating through the pages.
5. I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris-
For the young ones and the young once, this proves to be a challenging read. Harris, having written this from his dating and non-dating experience, offers practical Bible-based views and solutions to honor God through a life of holiness. I had first read this when I was in high school, and I think it has substatially helped in shaping my attitude on relationships (including waiting on the Lord for my husband). I personally think that this is so controversial in the sense that the typical dater would not even think of the idea of "not dating" to meet God's destined partner. Even then, I fiercely agree with this guy. This book is full of wisdom concerning different aspects of romantic relationships and allowing God to take hold of them.
6. Love Must Be Tough by James Dobson-
I am not married, but my personal interest in the intricate workings of a godly marriage has often led me to read books about the subject. I must say that this book is the best one I've come across so far. Reading this has given me real hope that marriages can be beautiful (my parents got separated). Dobson, having been happily married for more than 50 years, draws from personal experience as he gives practical solutions for various types of conflicts in marriage. It is interesting to note that this book actually came under fire, since during the time it was published, the commonly accepted idea is that marital conflicts should be dealt with passively and silently (meaning the offended Christian partner ought to suffer quietly and just pray). Dobson disagrees with this traditional method and presents proactive and effective ways to handle such difficult matters. This is perfect for couples NOT under fire- although it can be a useful read for those who actually ARE- but this is something I'd recommend more for couples in the early stage of their relationships. Why? Early prevention is better than cure.
7. Do Hard Things by Alex and Brett Harris-
Honestly I had initially picked this up because of their association with Joshua Harris (their older brother). I had expected a Class B, self-help novel for teenagers, but it was not long before I was very much moved by the Rebelution, a movement (started by the twin brothers themselves) which dares teenagers to do more than what the contemporary society expects them to do. This is what the book is mostly about- that people should start doing hard things in their time of youth, not when they become adults. The book discusses key people who have stepped up early in their lives and successfully built their own legacies for the benefit of the world. I wish I had read this ten years ago. I had actually given my copy away to my younger cousin, as I thought that she would be empowered by such an optimistic perspective of the youth. A powerful and motivational read. Not for traditionalists.
8. The Five Love Languages by Gary Chapman-
Who wouldn't know Chapman? He has popularized the love languages concept for all of us. His study has immensely benefitted a lot of people in their dealings with love and relationships. In this book, he explains the various expressions of love and how to harness its powers for the enhancement of relationships. Suddenly, the cliche that everyone needs love has become clearer through this. I will always be thankful that I have read this book, since it has given me a very useful and real insight on what it means to give and receive love. Everyone who wants to understand love and how to improve relationships must read this book! Practical and handy in all interpersonal dealings.
9. Joyfully Single by Harold J. Sala-
The bookstore shelves have always been full of titles on marriage, and I think during the time when this book was published, books on the season of singlehood are a rarity. In this intriguing novel, Sala gives a refreshingly positive view of the nurturing life of a single and shouts once and for all that singlehood is not a curse- but a gift and a season to enjoy. This has given me a lot of encouragement, especially since I'm waiting on my husband in an unconventional way (that is, prayerfully waiting on the Lord, thanks to Harris' view). In the Philippine scene where being a single adult is an indication of being cursed with some serious characteristic defect, I think this is highly essential for us to keep trusting God as we continue to flourish- even as a single.
There you have it! And if I were to add two more titles, I'd say the Bible and Narnia. Bible is the Word. Narnia is a classic.
I hope to read more books! Nothing like a great read to chew on...
What about you? What's on your list?^^
Class A- You must read this before you die! (Revolutionary.)
Class B- You should read this. (Highly recommended.)
Class C- You may read this. (Or not.)
I believe that books are indispensable, and there are some particularly memorable ones which have heavily influenced my way of thinking, mostly in my walk with the Lord. This is why I have made a list of the books which I hope that all people should read as soon as possible. So far, there are 27 titles in my list, but here, I will only be talking about nine... lest you'd want to spend a very long dinner with me to discuss each.
So! Not in order... here are my Top 9 (Class A) book selections, all published by OMF-
1. The Jesus I Never Knew by Philip Yancey-
Yancey's inquisitive nature has captured the sentiment of the world, including mine, I believe. His writings come off so genuine because he asks the raw questions that not too many believers would want to delve in. I think I was able to know more of the Lord's omnipotence AND humility by reading this book, which is a product of Yancey's personal search for God. It offers a closer (and I mean really CLOSER) look on the persona of Jesus- his godly and human attributes. If you're serious about knowing Jesus and you have (or you want to have) a personal relationship with him, then this is a very important book to read. Very heavy, but profoundly satisfying.
2. Eros Redeemed by John White-
Agape is the popular type, but in the popular culture, Eros is the mainstay. In a time when sexual liberation is becoming an accepted norm, White opens the discussion of Eros through this brilliant exposition. In this book, he boldly discusses sexual love as God's wonderful creation, and also dispels common and wrong beliefs about it. In detail, he talks about the gravity of sexual sin, and why it is indeed one of the worst sins to deal with. In a sex-crazed society, this is a much-needed read for a better perspective. I don't care if it's an old book- the issues presented within are still very much apparent in the modern day. I believe that my view of sex has improved through reading this book.
3. The Bondage Breaker by Neil Anderson-
I've read this for about 14 times, and I still think it rightly belongs to the shelves of the classics. Anderson comes up with a detailed list (yes, there is a list) of worldly elements which can be sources of bondages for people, Christian or non-Christian. Many books discuss about sin, but few contain straightforward points like the ones in this book. From this I learned that sin does not stop at just the act of sinning- there is more to it than just the "wrong" action, both in the natural and supernatural realms. Reading this more than once has deepened my understanding of strongholds, and, more importantly, of my freedom in Christ. If you want to know more about that, then this is the book to read.
4. What's So Amazing About Grace? by Philip Yancey-
Another self-searching book of Yancey, this attempts to explain the grace of God in a more detailed fashion. Yancey uses accounts of different people to show the transcendent power of grace and why everyone- and I mean every one of us- needs it. Having had my share of doubts regarding grace, I would gladly give this book to someone who wants to be assured of the mystery of God's finished work of salvation through Jesus. Mind-blowing (come on, it's a Yancey pick), but very sincere. I can feel the heart of "a man after God's own heart" beating through the pages.
5. I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris-
For the young ones and the young once, this proves to be a challenging read. Harris, having written this from his dating and non-dating experience, offers practical Bible-based views and solutions to honor God through a life of holiness. I had first read this when I was in high school, and I think it has substatially helped in shaping my attitude on relationships (including waiting on the Lord for my husband). I personally think that this is so controversial in the sense that the typical dater would not even think of the idea of "not dating" to meet God's destined partner. Even then, I fiercely agree with this guy. This book is full of wisdom concerning different aspects of romantic relationships and allowing God to take hold of them.
6. Love Must Be Tough by James Dobson-
I am not married, but my personal interest in the intricate workings of a godly marriage has often led me to read books about the subject. I must say that this book is the best one I've come across so far. Reading this has given me real hope that marriages can be beautiful (my parents got separated). Dobson, having been happily married for more than 50 years, draws from personal experience as he gives practical solutions for various types of conflicts in marriage. It is interesting to note that this book actually came under fire, since during the time it was published, the commonly accepted idea is that marital conflicts should be dealt with passively and silently (meaning the offended Christian partner ought to suffer quietly and just pray). Dobson disagrees with this traditional method and presents proactive and effective ways to handle such difficult matters. This is perfect for couples NOT under fire- although it can be a useful read for those who actually ARE- but this is something I'd recommend more for couples in the early stage of their relationships. Why? Early prevention is better than cure.
7. Do Hard Things by Alex and Brett Harris-
Honestly I had initially picked this up because of their association with Joshua Harris (their older brother). I had expected a Class B, self-help novel for teenagers, but it was not long before I was very much moved by the Rebelution, a movement (started by the twin brothers themselves) which dares teenagers to do more than what the contemporary society expects them to do. This is what the book is mostly about- that people should start doing hard things in their time of youth, not when they become adults. The book discusses key people who have stepped up early in their lives and successfully built their own legacies for the benefit of the world. I wish I had read this ten years ago. I had actually given my copy away to my younger cousin, as I thought that she would be empowered by such an optimistic perspective of the youth. A powerful and motivational read. Not for traditionalists.
8. The Five Love Languages by Gary Chapman-
Who wouldn't know Chapman? He has popularized the love languages concept for all of us. His study has immensely benefitted a lot of people in their dealings with love and relationships. In this book, he explains the various expressions of love and how to harness its powers for the enhancement of relationships. Suddenly, the cliche that everyone needs love has become clearer through this. I will always be thankful that I have read this book, since it has given me a very useful and real insight on what it means to give and receive love. Everyone who wants to understand love and how to improve relationships must read this book! Practical and handy in all interpersonal dealings.
9. Joyfully Single by Harold J. Sala-
The bookstore shelves have always been full of titles on marriage, and I think during the time when this book was published, books on the season of singlehood are a rarity. In this intriguing novel, Sala gives a refreshingly positive view of the nurturing life of a single and shouts once and for all that singlehood is not a curse- but a gift and a season to enjoy. This has given me a lot of encouragement, especially since I'm waiting on my husband in an unconventional way (that is, prayerfully waiting on the Lord, thanks to Harris' view). In the Philippine scene where being a single adult is an indication of being cursed with some serious characteristic defect, I think this is highly essential for us to keep trusting God as we continue to flourish- even as a single.
There you have it! And if I were to add two more titles, I'd say the Bible and Narnia. Bible is the Word. Narnia is a classic.
I hope to read more books! Nothing like a great read to chew on...
What about you? What's on your list?^^
Of Heroes and Hyperfans
While riding a jeepney on the way to Monumento this afternoon, I happened to notice the printed words on the back of the driver's red shirt. However faded it was, I still managed to read the words in bold format, "The Invincible Iron Man."
I smiled as I recalled the hype of Tony Stark, which had soared when his movies were shown internationally. His fame comes as of no surprise to the contemporary audience, most of whom are brought up in the days of super hero worship. I mean, who of this generation hasn't experienced playing Superman or Batman during his childhood days? We may be laughing as the memories of our pretend fighting days (complete with props and storylines) come to our minds, but it's true, right? An essential part of the role-plays we've been accustomed to is imitating the protagonists in spandex who rule primetime television. And yes, Iron Man, even without the spandex, is undeniably part of this legacy.
Heroes. The common equation they probably have is an ordinary, mundane life which transforms into the extraordinary through some special power or gift. Oh, and the popularity...
So where does this come from? I guess this concept of "hero-worship" is rooted in the basic need or tendency of humans to bow down to something, to look up to someone for hope that life is not just all that boring. (If this were not true, then Iron Man wouldn't have raked in so much renevue in the past few years.) I got this profound idea from Dr. James Kennedy's novel (What If Jesus Had Never Been Born?). This is why I personally laugh at the irony of atheism, because it goes against our very nature: our desire to worship something higher and bigger than we are.
The next question is, "Whom should we bow down to?" Sadly, many have answered this question with earthly possessions, shallow relationships, and even by their own capabilities (self-worship). And interesting enough, some have resorted to the fictional heroes, whom the advanced world has given so much value for. We probably do not notice it, as it has become part of our culture, but I believe that a society that feels more comfortable with discussing/fantasizing Iron Man than talking/meditating about God is having its priorities misplaced.
I am not saying that watching and admiring Iron Man as an entertainment figure is wrong, and there is nothing actually sinful about wearing a fan shirt, much like that of the jeepney driver's taste. But we ought to guard our minds as we reside in this temporal world. As Christians, we should not allow ourselves to get too attached to the things of this world that we lose our focus on the things of God. Yes, the many heroes that we know have their memorable one-liners, flashy costumes, and amazing superpowers, but those are only in the limits of our fantasy. In the real world, we only have The Invincible God. He is more than enough to satisfy our need for a higher power. And He alone deserves our worship.
And who says we can't be super? In the real world, we are made by God to lead extraordinary lives. We don't need costumes for that. Through Jesus, our ordinary, hapless being is transformed to a rich and meaningful existence. And to His children, God says,
"Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is- his good, pleasing, and perfect will."(Ro.12:2)
And because we already have our security in the Lord,
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day." (2Cor4:16)
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